Left Today

Aww. My boyfriend left today, right after he dropped me off to work. We had lunch together before he left [I had work at 12pm]. I really didn't want to go to work today. I just couldn't control my emotions. Tears just kept coming out. I didn't want to cry in front of him. Coz he said that he didn't want to see me cry. But I couldn't help it. It's just soo sad that he once again, had to go back to Auckland.

I could tell at some point that he had a bit of tears in his eyes too. But he just wasn't going to have them come out of his eyes. So now I know, that he does cry when he leaves. I've always wondered how he could be so strong and not cry. But this time round, I managed to see him have tears in his eyes. I'm happy to see that, but I know it's not a happy thing to see.

He also told me, he hung around, and watched me as I worked before he left. It was so cute and silly of him. He told me that he loved me that's why he did something like that, and told me not to be scared. I was definitely not scared. I was like happy? And felt that he was being a silly little boy. He's just so cute like that :)

I love him so much. And that little soft toy that he got me for Valentine's Day, I sniffed him and it has still got K's smell in it. It just instantly made me cry, coz I missed him so much. I think every time that he does come and spend time with me for quite a long period of time, I fall for him deeper and deeper. Only he has that kind of power to do that to me. I love him so much. I want to be with him everyday.

Can't wait till he comes back again.

Saturday Night

Got to spend my last day and night with my boyfriend yesterday. Had lunch with him, my younger brother and sister, Hi and Ho, at the Bean Cafe. Then he walked me over to work. After work, we went to Valentines for dinner. My boyfriend totally reads my mind! Like that was where I had wanted to go as well! I told him that he could read my mind hehe. The food there was average. It was a buffet. And it costs like $70 something. After that, we headed to Downtown to see if there were any good movies to watch. [Last week (Saturday) we went to watch, No Strings Attached -it was good :)]. But seems like there were no good movies to watch. So we headed [to his] home.

We watched a "special" video and then I took some photos off him [from all those days that we spent together]. Then we went to pick my younger sister up and we all went clubbing with J and his girlfriend, Sh, as well as with my older sister and Ho. We first went over to Malbas. We went straight to the dance floor. It freakin' hot! Mainly coz I was wearing a blazer as well! I was like sweating soo bad! But it was so much fun! Then I got tired and too sweaty so me and K walked out to the car so I could drop off my blazer in his car. It was nice outside. Before we started dancing, it was sooo cold [and raining] outside. But not when we finished dancing.

We then went to Highflyers. And Sh went home with of her friends. There weren't as much people at Highflyers, like there were at Malbas. But oh well. We still had fun and K bought me a drink there :D

Then at about 1.35am we all went home.

It seems like during the whole night that we were at the clubs, my boyfriend didn't seem like he was enjoying himself too much. He was more like, looking out for me, seeing if any guys were going to feel me up or anything haha. Poor K. If only he would stop worrying about that. Silly boy. But we did dance together. Fun night overall :)

Foxton Beach

YAYYY!! Finally got today and yesterday off to spend some quality time with my boyfriend!!! I'm so happy :)

Yesterday we spent our day together with my sisters and brother and our other friend Hi, at Foxton Beach. It was so much fun. We went into Foxton's little city center and then went off to get fish n chips for lunch. It was nice and yummy too! Then we headed off to the beach side. It wasn't like cold cold. It was a nice breeze/wind. We took lots of photos together. I really enjoyed spending the day with him [and the others of course]. We went home at about 3.30pm.

Then at night time, we all went out to play poor at Mr Cue. We played till like, 12.30am I think. It was fun.

And today, we just went up to Uni, to grab some freebies! Haha. And then headed off to town [as my brother had a dentist appointment at 2pm]. I got a bit grumpy coz I felt that K didn't want to be with/around me. Then he felt it and said he was sorry. But then all these negative feelings came to me, so I could no longer force myself to smile. but I still love him..

I'm Annoying?

He was at my place tonight [and just left].

He read this email [with me -in my Hotmail account], which was from H. And after reading that, he instantly told me to not reply. I asked him why, and he tells me that it's not point and that he'd just end up making me feel sad and moody etc. I just continued asking him why -mainly coz I wanted to reply. I just feel bad for not replying. And then I guess he just blurted out that I was annoying. He was like, "Sometimes you are very annoying." After that, I didn't say anything else. I just felt so sad after he said that.

Maybe it was true? Seeing as he has never ever said something so direct and 'harsh' towards me -and meant it. But I guess, some days, all these harsh words will come out towards us two, in a harsh way. :/

But it's OK. I know he didn't mean to say it that way. I forgive him and I understand how he feels. I constantly ask him why when he has already told me why and all. But in the end, he apologized as always. He's such a silly little boy. Always apologizing, even when it's not his fault. So silly. But cute in a way... AND... Sort of annoying sometimes when he keeps say 'sorry' for nothing. Silly Honey.

Bit By Bit

Finding out so much stuff about him. Yesterday, at his place, I was looking through his laptop -with him beside me of course. He told me about how he uses Microsoft Word [MS Word] to spell check and checks the grammar, before he sends me the mail through FB. Like aww. I felt so happy and proud of him for doing such thing :)

And he also wrote a little diary entry on MS Word. I saw/read a bit. It seemed sad. I shall read more later after I made/told him to let me :D Coz he didn't let me read it at that time. It said something like, how him being a boyfriend... Blah Blah Blah. And there was definitely this sad vibe in that little entry. He says it's not a proper diary entry but it was certainly a sad entry.

But anyways, I'm sooo tired. I have been working everyday since I got back from Auckland with my boyfriend :( I'm so sad that I haven't been able to spend proper days with my Honey. I know I should've said no to working [getting called up], but I just didn't have the heart to. I know K understands, although I know he would be a bit lonely as he probably doesn't have a lot to do... I'm sorry Honey. But I promise to make the most of it when we are together.

Back From Auckland

First of all, I'd like to say that, on Valentine's Day, it was AWESOME! Although it wasn't all that "romantic" and all. But like, we spent the day shopping, went over to visit his [older] sister for [free] ice cream :D at Botnay Down. It was nice! Then went [to his] home and got ready for our dinner. We once again went to a Japanese Restaurant -the same one that we went to with my friends last year in June, called Daikoku. It was nice. Then we walked over to the Sky Tower and took some photos and went to the gambling side of the Sky Tower and we played on one of those slot machine thingys. Went to the souviner side of it too, bought some stuff for mum and younger sister. We then headed off to the Mission Bay beach. It was quite cold and windy. But there were sooo many couples there. It was soo romantic! :) I'm so glad I got to spend that day with him ♡

Anyways, so on the day that we came back [15th], like 1hr 30mins from Auckland, we ended up with a flat tyre. It was soo not cool. It took us about 2hrs or so to manage to get it all fixed and repaired. And it was after hours, so Honey had to pay extra for it to get fixed :( Both our parents knew about the situation and my parents said that it was alright to sleep over at a hotel for a night if the tyre or his car was unable to continue with our trip. But K said he wanted to take me home, as I had work the next day.

We ended up arriving in PN at about 3am. But I went over to his place to sleep, coz I didn't want to go home and wake everyone up -as I didn't have the house key with me. And at the same time, I wanted to be with my boyfriend :D

But we knew I had to go home sometime early in the morning, or my parents would be all worried and wondering why we got home so late. So we got up at about 6.45am or so, so that he could take me back to my place. Then went back to sleep. Was a good trip. Sort of. Wasn't the one that we both planned out to have. But oh well. There is always another time where we can have a proper road trip together that is wayyy better :)

Off To Auckland - Again!

Going back up to Auckland again too see my boyfriend again!!! WOOPEEEE!!! I'm sooo excited! Going back up to celebrate Valentine's Day with him ♡ I'm soo happy I'm allowed to go up to Auckland again!

I got him this "Me to You" bear photo frame, with our photo in it -once again. But it's so much cuter. So now he's got a photo of us on his keys and in his room :D haha. Oh and of course, I got him another card :)

I'm so obsessed with putting our photos into photo frames and all haha. Hmm.. I'm thinking, for our 1 year or 2 year anniversary, I'm going to make a mini scrapbook or maybe get a little album so we can add photos into it. Hmm... But I might change my ideas again xD

Study More, Work Less

R told/texted me, saying that he can look after me financially and to not worry about money and to worry more about my studies. blah blah.

When I told K that. He was soo not happy to hear that. He said stuff like, 'Why would you want another guy to look after you financially when you've got a boyfriend, right here, to look after you financially??' And to not go asking for another guy for money. And stuff like that. He got soo worked up over it. But I understand why -after he told me xD haha.

He said he felt like he was 'useless' as a boyfriend, seeing as he could not provide his girlfriend with the things that she wants/needs. And has to ask another guy for something. So yeah. something like that. So I understand. It's sort of like a "Man's ego" kind of thing.

So... I'll try not to be oh-so-greedy when it comes to [free] money :O haha. Kidding. But I'll defiinitely ask K for money if I really need it :)

Back From Auckland

Left on Sunday night for Auckland at 11pm and arrived at 6.30am.

On Monday - Went to Rainbows End. Then went to shop a bit at Manakau Westfield. Then went home, took a shower, went down to cousin's [parents] shop, had dinner with family/cousins and with my beloved boyfriend!! :D Went out to the city for a bit then K took us home and I got to give birthday gift to my Honey :) [It was a keyring -which is shaped like a book [locket-like] with me and his picture in it :) and also a little torch and a card of course].

On Tuesday - Went shopping, went home to take a shower and then went to see a movie 'Burlesque' with cousins and then dinner with everyone [cousins/relatives -mum's side]!! Then went to play pool & bowling. K came to join us :) We all went home at about 12.30am.

On Wednesday - Lunch with K, cousin I and younger sister at Albany. Went shopping in the mall with my Honey. Then he drove me home and was work time for him :( Had to say bye bye to him. And amazingly, I didn't cry this time :') Then went to grandparents place. said our goodbye's to them. Left their place at 6pm. When we got down to Hamilton, we visited our [non-blood related] uncle and aunt. Left Hamilton at 9.30pm. Arrived at Cambridge for dinner, had KFC. Got home at 2.30am. Had a shower and then slept at about 4am.

Was such a good trip. Mainly coz I got to see my boyfriend while I was up there :)