LIKE at First Sight

Well, before I get started about this 'crush' thing of mine. I'll just say a bit about what happened yesterday when I saw J. OK. So I saw him and we just talked and all. BUT! I didn't ask him or talk to him about him 'betraying' me or whatever. I don't know why. Maybe it's because... I believe that he didn't 'betray' me? Hmm... I don't know. I think that I will tell him when he asks about him (G). Like if he says/asks, 'How's G?' then I'd probably be like, 'We're not friends anymore. Didn't you know? I thought you guys were good friends and he tells you everything.....!' Hmm... yeah. Probably something like that huh? 

ANYWAYS! Back to my.. "happy" story. Well, it goes like this. Last Tuesday, R introduced me to his good friend, K2. Well, actually, I was just hanging out with R, and then he told me that he was actually planning on having dinner with his friend and said that I could join them. So I did, since I didn't want to go home yet and R said that K2 could take me home. When K2 walked into R's room, I was like to myself,' WHOAAAA! Hottie....!' But you know, I wasn't like, all heads over heels for him or anything. Just thought. 'Oh. he's good looking.' That's it. Yeah, so we went to this Italian restaurant up at Summerhill Il Capo pasta & Pizzeria @ 7 p.m. or something like that. We ordered two pizzas and one pasta. They were pretty tasty pizzas and pasta. Though it was like $12 for a small pizza. It was quite filling. But pretty small too. After that, we just sat there and had a little chat, K2 ate most of the pizzas and pasta, coz I was too full and didn't want my big stomach to show (haha) and R was sick so he couldn't eat much.

We left at like 8 p.m. and K2 drove me home. I really think that K2 is like the BEST looking guy I've ever seen so far. Well, not in a while anyways. I mean, he's single, from Hong Kong, only 23, good looking, most likely a rich guy, have good style and such a gentleman. I must say he is someone that I'd like to go out with. He's a potential boyfriend for me. But I thing that I would have no chance, I mean, he's such a good looking guy so why would he go for someone like me? I don't think he's "desperate" for a girlfriend and would have any problems in finding a potential girlfriend. He's so good looking and such a nice guy. How hard would it be for him to find a girl? 

*Sigh* When I find the right guy, he's just too good for me. When there are plenty of guys around me, none of them are right for me... Life is hard, huh? And the thing is, K2 thinks that me and R are going out!! OMG. That's just even more tragic. Coz that'll mean that, he won't go for me, coz he thinks that his friend is going out with me!! OMG!! That's so not good!! I wonder how I can get to him... I'm not desperate. But you know. I do want him to be my boyfriend. Since he is the kind of guy I want. In a way, you could say that he is the "perfect" guy for me... xD So we'll see how things go, huh? Wish me luck!! ><

No longer Friends

Yeah. So I haven't been blogging since.. last week I think. Not a lot has been happening. But, I'll sum up on 

what has been happening so far plus what I will really talk about regarding that title up there.. haha. Well. On Saturday 19th, it was the Sakura Festival at IPC (International Pacific College) and me and my friends R a

nd (New friend. Introduced to me last Tuesday by R) K2 (Yes. Another K lol) went to the festival together @ 12.30 p.m. K2 drove us up there. We just walked around a bit. Trying to find some (good) food to eat and yeah, just looking around really. And meet a lot of my friends there. And so did K2. And oh my gosh! K2 thinks that me and R are going out! WHAT THE HELL?! No way! >O<; K2 is pretty good looking (and single) I might just add ;) 

Anyways!! So, what I wanted to blog about today is that, yesterday was G's birthday, and I decided I should play my part, and say 'happy birthday' to him. I wanted to say it via Facebook. But I found out that he had actually deleted me off Facebook. I don't know when exactly. But I'm thinking it was about a couple of weeks or so ago. So i decided to text him 'happy birthday'. I texted to him 'Thanks for deleting me off Facebook. I'd just like to say. Happy birthday. Hope you had a good one. oh. and have a nice life. bye.' (Haha I purposely put 'have a nice life there haha). And then he replied with a NASTY AS response (lol). He said 'Bitch f*** off. Jerey told me everything about you. I don't want you near me. Delete my number. I don't wanna hear anything from you. Stay the f*** outta here. You have lost all my respect. I'm having a good life without you in my business. So once again f*** off arse whole and I mean it.' 

Man that made me laugh. I mean, for a start, he spelt his 'good' friend, J, WRONG!

 And he tried to spell "asshole" but he spelt it with a "W"!! I mean what the hell? If you want to swear, at least spell it right. Secondly, he says, 'you have lost all my respect.' Well for his information, he has never fully respected me. So what the hell is he trying to say? Oh yeah. That's right. He's once again, the person that's right. Was doing the 'right' thing all along and also the "victim". Yeahhhhh right. He never considers other people's feelings. Everything HAS to be about HIM. It's like the world revolves around HIM ONLY. So selfish. But whatever. I don't give a damn about that freak no more anyways. I played my role. I never said anything as nasty to him as he had to me. And don't worry. I won't say anything to him, in order to defend myself. I will refrain myself from saying nasty things about him or to him. I have put up with him for so long. And yet. He treats me like shit and thinks that HE was the one getting treated like shit and is right about everything. He is soo inconsiderate. I hate people like him. Either way, I don't care about him anymore. We will go our own separate ways. I don't care what he does or says. And I, myself, is definitely having a good, relaxing life without him as well. No one to cling onto me, no one to have stupid arguments with and most importantly, no one to hurt me over and over again with their hurtful words. I will never miss anything about him. NEVER. Will NOT think about the good times we had. Will NOT think about how he hurt me. But now. All I know is that, NEVER be friends with black people. They are all such complicating people. I'm sorry to judge all black people on just one person. But, if you think about it, it's true... 

On the other hand, I'd like to know why, my best guy friend, J, told G everything! And yet, he was the one that told me that, 'everything that we talk about (G) is just between us'. HUH?! What happened to that?! I trusted him, that's why I THOUGHT I could tell him how i felt about G and there he  goes telling G!! WHAT THE HELL!??!!? He betrayed me!! I don't know whether that is true or not. But I cannot trust anyone, anymore. I won't tell J anything, regarding my feelings for anyone! I can't trust him with that. But I still plan to confront to him about this issue. We'll see what happens when I see J tomorrow,

Stalking Me?

Well.. I haven't been blogging for ages it seems.. Well that's mainly because I have nothing much to say.

Recently, my life has been average. No real big dramas like I had before the second semester break. Which is good I rekon. But the thing is, this has only been the first week after my semester break finished and I think G has sort of been stalking me? I wouldn't know if you would call it 'stalking'. But he HAS been sort of following me. Not constantly. But just.. Occasionally I guess.

I mean on that Monday back, I had finished for the day @ 1 p.m. and went to the computer lab, I saw him in the computer lab at uni, and I didn't want to say hi, mainly because I did not want to make conversation with him, it's just really awkward (for me) anyways. So i pretended I didn't see him. But I know that he did see me, as I was sort of sitting like in front of him. I didn't want to turn around or look around the room, coz I didn't even want to say hi or smile at him. it's just hard for me to such stuff at the moment. My gf S came in the lab, sometime around 2 p.m. and even then, it was hard for me to turn around at look at her. luckily she sat on my left side. Or it will be soo obvious that I could see him, if I turned around to talk to S. He eventually left the room at about 2.30 p.m. or something like that. I was relieved. I could FINALLY relax and breathe normally!! haha.

Anyways. S had and STILL has her guy problems like me. But probably, her awkward moment with her guy friend is pretty much over, unlike mine, which has pretty much.. sort of started or in the middle. So yeah. S had class at 3 p.m. so we decided to go to the uni shop (where we buy food - sort of like a mini mart kind of thing - but soo expensive! lol), to buy something to eat before she goes to class and before I go home. We both bought $1 mix, as we don't eat a lot (haha).

So after that, S went to her class, and I walked to the bus stop. As I was walking there, I saw G!! (OMG!) and he was sitting down. I freaked out. Luckily there were a big bunch of other people. also there to wait or the bus. Coz at that time, there is usually a lot of people waiting to catch the bus. So I stood in with the crowd instead of sitting down like I usually do. I was eating my lolly mix, whilst waiting for my 12A bus to come. And when it did finally came. I sort of low key-ly rushed to the bus, so I could get on it (duh). When I sound a seat to sit on, I started to text coz S had texted me, but as I was texting her, from the corner of my eye, I could see that G had came onto my bus and he had walked right past where I was sitting and was looking down at me as he walked past! FREAKY MUCH?! I automatically told (texted) S that. I was totally freaked. i could not turn around or anything -just allowed myself to turn to look outside the window. Finally, when the bus was getting closer to my bus stop (near my house), I happily got off the bus. Was so relieved I was finally out of that bus and all that.. pressure(?)

I mean what the hell was he doing on MY (not literally but you know what I mean) bus?! I mean his 12C bus was like right behind my bus (or in-front, can't remember, but I'm sure it was in-front..) and yet, he didn't take it! And his bus left earlier than my bus, so why the hell would he be taking my bus?! He never takes my bus unless he's with me or whatever. So what the hell was that about!?

BUT! on Thursday, I was late for the bus, I was gonna catch the bus with S but sadly, I missed it. So I had to walk to the Fitzherbet Street bus stop to catch the next one to uni. I texted S that I would be in the computer lab, doing my Written Communication essay. When S had finished her class, she told me that G was outside of the class/lecture room walking around, sort of look like he was waiting for someone - well specifically speaking, he wasn't particularly doing anything there. And S knew that I wouldn't like her talking to him, so she made a detour to the toilets. I mean I knew that he had a class there just then, but he also knew that I would have my Geo class there afterwards.

MAYBE he was waiting for me!? I don't know. But that is freaky. I mean, why would he do that? Coz usually he wouldn't do that. But whatever the reason was, I'm sticking with what I think right now. Coz either way. It's freaky.

I talked to J on Tuesday and he said that (maybe) G is trying to 'teach' me a lesson - a lesson to make ME talk to him FIRST! When I heard that I was like 'PFFT. AS IF!' That was soo unlikely to happen, as I DID NOT want to talk to him or have any contact with him of any kind at the moment. So if he was waiting for that. He can stop wasting his time and 'get over it' -in his words to me (when he told me to get over what (nasty/hurtful words) he had said to me. J also told me that G had gone emo. And that I had REALLY got to him. I was like YUS!! So freaking happy. Coz that's what you get if u hurt somebody and don't apologize or stop saying such things and all those things he did or said to me. He deserved it I'd say! ;D