Never Will Be The Same Again?

This is the first time -ever, that me and him has ever had a fight/arguement that lasts for more than a day or 24 hours even.........

I don't know whether he is angry at me for not answering his [phone] calls 5x or that it's coz I told him I was considering about going to town after my work mates 21st birthday party..... But either way, since last night, we haven't really been talking the same... And it's killing me...

It feels like we're on the verge of breaking up... But then he says that he loves me and will never leave me... But I just can't feel that... I serioulsy don't know what's wrong... And why it's so hard to get over. Maybe I'm missing out something.. Or just haven't thought about it clearly from his point of view....?

I don't know whether we will be able to go back to how we were before all this... But he says he will be fine maybe on Monday or Tuesday... Even if he does feel better, I still don't see how we can talk like we have before... Like I said before, we've never had an arguement/fight for such a long period of time... This is the first..

And next month is our 1 year anniversary... And I was planning to make him this little scrapbook of all our memories so far... And now.. With all this happening... I don't even know if it'll be happening and whether I should be continuing or not... I got everything I need so far. Just need to print out some photos and then arrange them...

It's just that, if we do end up being all good after a couple of days then I wouldn't be able to finish the scrapbook on time, as I have other things like, work and my studies to focus on... But if we really happen to end things... Then it'd just be another piece of sad memory, hanging around me..............

I hope for the best. But at this rate, I really don't know what will happen, and I seriously don't have the motivation to actually get started on the anniversary gift.... Although I know I really need to or I might not get enough time to finish it on time....... *Sigh*

Someone please help me... I can't tell anyone this. But myself........


P.S. We're all good now ;) hehe (26/07/2011).