The reason why my boyfriend has only been staying for the weekend, is cos he's changed areas in his job. And now it's 5 working days and 2 days off. Before it was 6 working days and 4 days off, meaning that he could come back and see me longer. Now, it's so hard to see him longer than like, 1 day and a half-ish. It's so sad :(
Now that he's gone back for work, it feels like it'll be aaaggeessss till we're able to see each other again. I just miss him even more now. Every month, I only get to see him like for 1 day and a half-ish. It's very painful. It makes me feel so lonely without him by my side.
Sometimes it feels like he's the only person in this whole world (besides family), that I can turn to, with any problem that I got. He means the world to me and if anything happens to him, I'd be ever so devastated :( I don't want him to work in that new area anymore. Not only does he not get enough sleep/rest, he has to wake up so early and has a lot of stress at work cos of the work load that he has to do. I worry about him heaps.
There are times, when I wonder and think to myself, if he didn't have a girlfriend, would he still be the same? Like, sleeping late at night, hoping/waiting to call me or having to try text me whenever he can? It makes me think, he gets so tired, is cos he has a girlfriend... Maybe if he didn't have a girlfriend, he'll like the job more, and wouldn't have to plan as many trips to come back and see me (and his parents)? Wouldn't have to stay up late, waiting to call me or checking to see what I'm doing etc.
Either way, I miss him heaps and I try my best to not be a "princess" and let him have most things his way. I don't want to see him get sick or anything which may make his health worse :( I worry about him heaps. And I miss him more than ever now :(
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