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Ok. So I haven't been blogging in agessss. I guess quite a lt has been happening....?
Well so far, on last Saturday, my guy best friend had a party (to kinda celebrate me and his birthday 2 weeks ago). It was pretty fun acutally. And this time, I did not get drunk! LOL. *phew*

BUT! Like i said before in my other blog, I have been hanging out with this guy... (who's African) and we have become really close I guess. I mean we talk on the phone pretty much everyday and night, we text a lot and all. We have also hung out a lot during the first week of our holiday. I must say it's pretty fun hanging out and talking to him. You could say that we can talk about pretty much anything, and that we know quite a lot about each other now -though I know that there is more to know about each other. He makes me smile and laugh a lot. Everytime I look at him, I dunno, but I just start to smile. There must be something about him that makes me look/stare at him that way....

Sometimes, when I look at him, I think, 'Maybe being his girlfriend wouldn't be so bad, would it?' but then I think about what other people would say about us if we DID go out. Coz he told me he had a crush on me last Sunday night. When I asked him how his love life was, he told me that it wasn't going so well and I asked him why not, he replied "Coz I like this chick, but I don't know if she likes me or not. And I know that she doesn't want to be in a relationship and everything." And obviously... he was meaning me. I mean, I was the one that told him that I thought that being in a relationship was annoying, and a lot of hard work and all. 

I sometimes feel that I WANT to be with him, but then there are all these people that kind of like... get all racist, saying things like 'asians and blacks hanging out together? Gosh.' or somthing like 'How often do u see a black and an asian hang out?' Man. That is like sooo annoying. I have that kind of criticism.... It totally puts me off any realtionship....
Well. We'll see what happens. Hope it all goes well. Or we could just stay good friends...

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