Sorting Things Out

So last night, me and K got it all sorted. When he drove me home, he made this long as speech, telling me how sorry and regretful he was. Saying that the went over the line and that he was just joking and that he didn't know that it would come to this and make me unhappy/upset. The whole way through, I didn't talk to him. Before that, he even came to back to the labs and tried to apologize and talk to me and ask me what was wrong. I just completely ignored him and even if I answered, it would be "Mmm", "Nothing", "What?", "OK" etc.

He eventually left and went back to the library. He called me twice before he came over. But I ignored it. I texted him that I wasn't in the mood to talk. I just was so upset. I just didn't want to talk to him that moment. I preferred texting him than opening my mouth to talk to him. I didn't even want to look at him. Coz I know, that looking a him will make me weak o the knees and I would just automatically would've given in and then it would be pointless to be upset over it.

So in the end, when we were finally at my house. I got all my stuff back [folders and all] and as I turned to look at him before going up the stairs, [coz I do miss him. Hehe], I gave him a hug and he hugged me back soo tight, like he didn't ever want to let go. He then repeated he was sorry and all. That's when I started talking to him.

I told him that it was OK. Coz I have gotten over it and that I have forgiven him. He said that he cannot forgive himself, for not being able to give me happiness and trust. Coz instead, he made me unhappy and upset. And that was what he did not want. I was like, "Aww. It's OK. The past is the past. Just leave it there. We are all good now, OK?" But he still felt regretful and unhappy about that.

Then he said I better go inside now [coz it was like 12am] so I was like OK. He then asked for a good night kiss. I was like sorry, I'm chewing gum. Haha. He was like kiss on the cheek then? I was like, OK. Then he ended up trying to kiss me [on the lips] anyways. Though it wasn't full-on. Haha. I just lvoe my boyfriend so much.

Oh and according to my older sister, [coz they exchanged numbers yesterday], she told me that he was really scared by the expression on my face and that it was the first time ever to see me like that. I was like to her, DUH. Don't expect me to do that as friends. And we weren't that close as friends anyways. Haha.

But anyways, I hope we won't have another one of these "arguments/fights" no more. Coz it's hard being upset or 'angry' at the guy you really like and don't want to lose :)