Trust

Well... So it seems that K and I are having our sort of "first" fight/argument. But you can't really call it an argument. Coz.. I guess it's more like, a misunderstanding and the fact that he doesn't really trust me. And I guess I cannot blame him.

So what happened was that, R texted me, saying, "You liked H." I didn't reply coz I was busy talking with K. Then minutes later, he texted me again and said that, "Lol. I can't believe you with K too. Lol." and K saw that message and I finished reading it before him and I chucked my phone aside. And K wanted to know what it said, coz he saw his name on it. I didn't want him to know what the message said, so I told him that I wasn't gonna let him see it, coz I didn't want their situation to get more awkward. But in the end, I showed him, coz I didn't want him to be unhappy.

Then he asked, "Why did he say "too" as well? There must be something else as well." I was like, no there isn't... And he's like, yes there is. Otherwise he wouldn't say "too". So... I eventually showed him coz I didn't want him to be unhappy. When I did, he said to me, that I was "cheating" on him with another guy. But I told him I wasn't.

He said he believed me and that even if I was cheating on him, he couldn't do anything about it anyways. I was like... So.. Upset when he said that. Coz that just told me that he didn't believe me... And I was telling the honest truth! I wasn't and am NOT cheating on him!! I love him and him only! [But I didn't tell him that]. Then he said that he was gonna give me some time to think about it [my answer] and I was like, there IS nothing to think about! And he's like, "I don't want to get hurt again, so I'm/I'll give you a second chance. If i find out that you are, then I will treat you the same as my ex-[gf]. Coz according to him, she cheated on him and lied to him about it. And he said to himself that he is never going to get hurt by the same girl twice, ever again.

When he told me that he was going to give me a second chance... I was like.. Speechless... I just didn't know what to say... Coz.. I didn't do anything wrong... I mean... I'm telling him the honest truth.. And he's doubting me... I asked him, what does he want me to do, to believe me? And he said, don't know..

Oh the more I write about this, the more I feel the urge to cry.... I'm so unhappy right now.

He left me and went to the library... [but he said he was gonna go there before anyways. I just wanted him to stay with me a bit longer, that's why .. All this happened I guess].

Now.. I don't feel like seeing him or talking to him at the moment.. Coz... I'm just unhappy at the moment...