2nd Anniversary

YAY! Today is me and my boyfriend's 2nd anniversary! I can't believe it's been 2 years already. It sort of feels like we've been together for more than that. I don't know why, even though we're doing it long distance and we hardly get to see each other for long. Maybe it's cos I feel so close to him.... :) He's honestly a  great guy.

But the thing is, it sort of doesn't really feel that special this year... I think it's cos it's not our first anniversary and we're not making that much of a big deal out of it, like we did for our first. To me, every special occasion deserves a hint of nerves and surprises. Like, I don't feel nervous (like I normally would cos it's a special day) and it just feels like just another day.... Which is pretty sad. He hasn't even said "Happy Anniversary" to me yet this morning. At this time, last year he would've said it the first thing as he woke up. But not this year....

I don't want this kind of "surprise" and "excitement" in our relationship to fizz away that quickly... I mean, other couples still have huge surprises after being together for ages! (And yes I know I shouldn't compare my relationship to others, but it comes to the point where I can't help it...). For example, the couple that I've been "following" on Instagram, Arnold and Heart, they've just recently had their 6th anniversary and Arnold took her out for dinner and got her something nice. I've also noticed for Valentine's Day, Arnold ASKED her (Heart) to be his Valentine although it would be obvious what her answer would be, and he would also get her flowers and gifts (when asking). Which I think is really sweet. 

Me and K has only been together for 2 years, and I see no "excitement" or surprises coming up... Imagine what we'd be like and what we'd be doing on our 6th anniversary.... He said before that it's only our second anniversary, so no need to go all out on the gifts like we did on our first one. That, I didn't mind. But not having some sort of "special" plans for the day and all, kinda makes me feel sad..... Maybe I should say something to him, but I don't want myself to sound like "the high expectations girlfriend"..... :/ I've had my work mates asking me if my boyfriend has something "special" planned, and I reply, "not sure" or "don't know" with a smile. Cos deep down, I know there is nothing planned really.....

I know we're both trying to save for next year, as we're planning on moving in together, but sometimes, things happens only once, and if you miss out, then you miss out. I know anniversaries happen every year (if nothing bad happens) but still... Make every one (anniversary) special and memorable... It doesn't have to be al about money, but I just want the day to be a LITTLE bit different to the many other days in the year....