I never thought that I'd ever lose another friend after i lost Jh (as a friend). But last night, it was like history repeating itself for me. Something that I'd never thought would happen to me again...Me and my good friend G we hanging out together last night. We were walking and talking from uni to town. When we were nearly in town our argument started and as we got into town we were pretty much on the not-talking-to-each-other mode.
It all started when he told me why he had deleted my number. The reason for it was that he wanted to forget about me and so he deleted my number so he wouldn't have the urge to text, call or contact me in any way. But to me, it sounded like he didn't want to be my friend anymore. I mean it's like if u delete someone's number and you don't want to contact them (first), it gives you the feeling that maybe they don't want to be friends with you anymore, right? Well that's how i felt and got angry/upset about.
Then as we argued a bit more about my point of view and his point of view. Then somehow we ended up telling each other how we TRUELY felt about each other and everything and I don't know. I think things got a bit awkward between us or something and all I wanted to do then, was to be left alone and think. Coz that moment, a million little things was running through my head, he thought I didn't talk much was coz I was mad at him. I was. But that wasn't one of the main reasons that I wasn't talking though.
In the end, he walked off and I thought he walked off without saying 'bye' so I thought maybe our friendship is over. Then after like 10 - 20 minutes I decided I would text him for the very last time, to thank him for walking me home and for everything that he has done for me and with me. he replied with a similar text buh at the end, he asked if he could have his jacket back. I had to reply to him so he wouldn't think that I was gonna keep his jacket or something. I also texted along with the second text that 'it's like history is repeating for me again'. And that's when he rang me but I had low battery so he had to wait until I got home as I was at my sisters' flat.
When I got home, it took me a while to think whether I should text him that I'm home, coz if I don't he will think that, you know, it was my fault for not texting him and all. So in the end, I texted him and within a few seconds, he rang me.
Overall, we talked for 1 hour and 37 minutes and 54 seconds. We both went to bed at like 1.30 am.We talked soo much. It was hard for me (and him) to talk at first, as I think it was a bit awkward. But then we started to open up slowly and expressed our true feelings to each other. We became good friends again. We both thought the same thing. He thought that I didn't want to be friends anymore and I thought exactly the same. But now we are all good! =) I'm very happy about that. so glad that we didn't end up being not friends!
We both hope and want to be friends forever! Coz we think it would be better that way.
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