
It all started yesterday afternoon. He told me that morning that he had something to tell me. So he texted me and asked me if I was free at 1 p.m. I said I was. We both knew that he had a class at 1 p.m. But he insisted that he wanted to talk to me instead. So when we finally saw each other in the computer lab, he never mentioned a single word to me about what he had wanted to tell me. maybe it was because of the fact that my friend S was here with me as well. But that shouldn't stop him from telling me what he had wanted to tell me! I mean he could've took me aside and told me. But no! That's not what he was thinking. He blamed it on me saying that when he 'tried to lead into' what he was trying to tell me, I had turned around and said that I was not listening. It never came to me that, that was what he was trying to tell me. I thought he was talking about S's situation so I didn't pay much attention to him. When he did sort of talk about himself, S had already walked in the room. So would he of carried on with it or not? I doubt he would.

When it was time for him to go to his next class at 2 p.m. He left saying bye to both me and S. It never came to me that he was upset (at me). He texted me a few minutes later saying that I never asked him about it. It was going fine until.. I dunno. He just started to get all mad at me. saying hurtful things to me. It really sounded like he was blaming ME for not asking him about what he had
wanted to tell me! I mean what the hell is up with that?! If he wants to tell me something, he's got to be the one that brings it up. He said he was leading into it (just as S came in). But he said that I had turned around and didn't want to listen. He then said (texted) these exact words, 'I wagged class to meet u and tell you. Now. It's dumb. So shut up and f*** up.' I told him that he could not blame me entirely and to not get all angry at me. He then replied, 'Just f*** off Q. I am tired of this. Am sick of your games. I don't want you anymore. I been nice to you. And now I am snappy. I will never understand you. Leave me alone. I had enough.' I never texted him back after that. He doesn't realize how he just told me to f*** up and shut up and then telling me to f*** off.
We both haven't talked to each other since. I was really angry and pissed of at him. He had blamed EVERYTHING on me. Even for the things that weren't the cause of this argument/fight. He thinks I'm playing games with him? What the f*** man. I don't have time for that s***. And saying that he has been nice to me, means that I haven't been nice to him or something! Telling me to lave him alone and all. Fine. I will.
After all this, I have a very good idea of what kind of person he really is. He is: selfish, arrogant, persistent, inconsiderate and a person that never takes the blame coz it's always that person's fault! I don't think he regrets a SINGLE word that he has said to me that day. He never thinks about the consequences. Like when he deleted my cellphone number from his phone just coz he was pissed at me and that it was his 'way' of forgetting about me. He said that he will never delete my number from his phone again. We'll see if he does or not.

All I know now is that, I do not want to see or talk to him. I don't want to be angry or mad at him. But this is all because of him. I do take it that SOME things are my fault. But this time. It is certainly not my fault and I am not taking the blame for it and I am not giving in to him. I will say 'hi' and everything to him so people don;t need to suspect that we're not on good terms at the moment. But hanging out with him, is another story. I don't know whether we are still friends or not, as he told me to 'leave him alone', to 'f*** off' and to 'shut up and f*** up'. But I guess that is all up to him now. Coz I give on all this. I cannot take it any longer myself. It doesn't matter to me anymore this friendship. I don't want to lose him as a friend, coz as a friend, he is very fun to be around with. I think the thing that breaks our friendship is the word 'love'. This has mostly been the cause of our fight and arguments.
So now I know what my final answer is to the question that he has always wanted t know. 'Do we have a chance of going out?' The answer is very clear to me now. It is: NO. I don't want to be with someone like him. He's all good when we are just (good) friends. But more than that? I don't think I would be able to handle that. Sorry. I still care a lot about him, I think about him a lot. But... I know that we can only be friends.
I just want to be good friends with him. So yes. He can finally give up on me and find someone else. Someone who would have a clearer idea of whether they want to go out with him or not. Coz with me? It's never gonna work out between me and him. We only work good together as good friends. And good friends only. Nothing else. I hope that we will work past this soon. I don't want to be ignoring him and everything. Though that is my plan until he gives me good enough reasons on why he got so angry and mad at me and (hinting) that everything is MY fault.

Good luck to us.
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