Another Girl

Why does he have to be talking about other girls?? Last night on the phone, he randomly bought up that he'd go flirt or something like that with my Korean friend, M, who lives/studies in Auckland. He met her when I was up in Auckland in June. He told me that time, that he thought she was cute coz of the fact that she was so quiet and shy. The way that she talked was quiet [=calm] which made her so cute and stuff like. At that point, we were just friends. So I didn't really mind him saying that, and considering it was me, who asked what he thought about her.

Later on, he tells me that, if we weren't going out, he would've been considering M, and thinking about asking her out and getting to know her and all. I was like, "Oh..." But I didn't take it to heart. But somehow, last night, when he said that he would go find M, coz I wouldn't do something [or something like that], he said he'd go find her, and I said, you don't know where she lives. He goes, "I have my ways of finding out." After that, I some what, felt all upset and sad. I don't know why.. But I just did...

He then realized that I was no longer in a happy mood and apologized for saying that. And that it was only a joke. I was like OK.. I told him to sleep, as it was getting late and he had work early in the morning at 4am. So I didn't want him to be so tired considering it was like nearly 12am. He said he'd call me again tomorrow.

After we hung up, I texted R, coz he texted me about 11.15pm asking if I was still awake, but at that time, I was on the phone with K. So I texted him that and then later on, he called me. And we ended up having a 2hr 2mins talk. The battery on his phone ran out. So we ended the conversation then.

Anyways! So I told R about the situation, coz he asked how me and K were going. I was like, "Meh. The same old." [in Cantonese]. And he was like, "Wow, you don't seem too happy. I thought when girls are dating someone, and get asked that question, they get all excited and say it's good not "The same old" ..." So that's when I told him the situation. He said that it was normal for me to be upset. Considering he did talk about another girl. And saying, who wouldn't be upset in that situation?

I told him, that I don't mind him talking about other girls. As long as it wasn't about [dating/flirting etc.] with my sisters or friends. If it was just a random girl in town or on the streets, then I wouldn't mind. Then R said, "Wow. You have such a good [tolerance] temper/"thoughtful". You're such a good person! You're my idol!" I was like, "Haha. Am I?"

But yeah, anyways, I told him that now that I think about it, I think that I was quite immature/childish just getting upset over such little thing. Considering how unlikely its going to happen [him and M]. But R said that it wasn't immature/childish. It's normal. And that K shouldn't of said such thing.

Later on he asked if k knew that I was talking to him on the phone. I said no. Coz I think we all know that K will be unhappy if he knew. R was like, "That's really sad that you're not allowed to talk to your other [guy] friends.." Then I told him, "Na. Well, if I put myself in his shoes, and he was talking to his [close] female friend all the, like me and you do. I would get quite unhappy and jealous as well. So I understand where he is coming from." He was like, "Hmm..."

So in the end, you could say that, R made me happy again. Although I still think about it. But no matter how much R can make me happy and smile when I'm down, I will still love K. My heart will always belong to him, no matter how much he annoys me, pisses me off, makes me angry or upset at him etc. I will still love him in the end. Coz I know he truly loves me...

Am I stupid.............?

Manager

So it seems that my manager at Valleygirl ain't so bad after all. I mean, yeah, she did give me this vibe where I thought she had something against me or something like that. But working with her on Saturday [and Friday] made me realize, that she really isn't that much of a bad person or holding some sort of "grudge" against me.

I mean, I admit, last week I was a bit cranky and some what, my mood was crap and I was acting all grumpy and all. And I know she wanted me to do some customer service and all. But that time, I was soo not feeling motivated to do anything, let alone talk. So.. Yeah. I guess I can understand why I got that vibe from her.

I need to perk up a little and carry on with my happy work-mode :D I think I got all happy and motivated this week, was all because of K. Having him here, and seeing him, made me extremely happy and motivated to do anything. He's that special I guess :) He is defintely my "charger", like he says :) Love him so much.

I miss him now. Hmm.. And he's working right now.. Miss him.

So yeah, my manager L, isn't that much of a "bad" person after all. She's great. And so is my 2IC, A. She's nice. I love the girls @Valleygirl! And I love my SSM, P as well :) And most of all, the one I love the most, would be my beloved boyfriend, K ♡

He's Gone...

He left this afternoon after seeing me during my lunch break. I was so sad. And I can't believe that this morning, when I woke up at about 9am, thinking that I don't need him to pick me up and take me to work. Coz I thought that if I saw him again, I will miss him so much, that it will effect me at work. So I thought I'd walk there.

But he came and picked me up and even called me up, coz I hadn't texted him back at about 10.32am and at 10.47am. I felt so bad when he told me he was at my place since 10.30am. But glad he had called me up and woken me up too. Coz I had work at 12pm. And needed to get ready and all.

He said that he will try make it and see me on my lunch break. But there were no promises. I was like aww. OK.. He had lunch with his parents while I was working. His mum came back down to PN from Auckland this morning. And he told me that she was hoping/thinking that we were going to pick her up. I was like aww. We could've. But it's OK :)

My Honey also had to go to my grandparents place again. Coz my parents wanted to give them some veges. So K said he could deliver it to them. When he went there, he was still on the phone with me and so I could hear the whole conversation between him and my grandma. He jokingly said to her that I'm a bad girl and that I have another boyfriend in PN. And she went all "crazy" at him saying, "No way! She's not that type of girl! She will only choose you! You are so polite, such a good boy, and so respectful to the elderly!" He was like to me, "You hear that." I was like, "Haha." And smiling at the same time.

I'm so glad my grandparents love him as much as I do. I love him so much. He's such a little cutie. I love him heaps and heaps :) And I miss him so much now. I can't wait to see him again at the end of next month x) It's going to be another lonnnggg wait :/

He's Back!

My Honey is back!! Well actually he has been here since Thursday night. Oh man. Was I damn happy or what to see him that night?! xD Sheesh. I love him so much. As soon as we saw each other, we gave each other a big, long, tight hug! Mmm... I can feel it now.. I love him so much. And I had certainly missed him heaps!

He even worked at my parents shop in place of my mum [she's in HK]. And it was great working with him. I love him. He's just so kind. I mean, it's good to know that he could help. He's so silly. He has to find something to do when he was working with us. Silly boy :)

Tonight, I got to spend the whole night with him, coz mum came back at 5pm. And he went to take her back to work and then come back to town to pick me up :) We went to Steak Out and he ordered this Eye Fillet thing. And I ordered a Fish Fillet. It was a nice dinner. Was going to have dessert. But like, sheesh. got so full and couldn't stuff anymore in haha.

We went to his house later on, to get his laptop and hard drive so he could get some shows/dramas/movies from my dad. And to also show me wearing his shirt. Like one of those 'business' type shirts. It was a black with thin white stripes. He looked amazing with it on. I loved it. And hugging him while he was wearing it, was like, aww gosh! Hotness! Haha.

Then... We started doing stuff. Haha. Then we eventually went back to my place and he got his dramas and all from dad and he showed me this [cantonese] movie called, "Break Up Club" and he showed me this sad bit and I had my head on his shoulder, and it felt good. But watching that sad bit was just so saddening. In a way, after watching it, I felt so sad and somehow, felt that he might be leaving me. I just suddenly came down with this sadness and felt so down. Especially when he had to leave.

Maybe I felt like that, is coz when he left, he didn't really seem like, he ... Hmm.. How do you say it.. Seemed like it didn't matter to him [that the fact that he was leaving] so I felt that he didn't care about me. I felt sad. And seeing him leave and having his back turned to me, walking away, just made me even sadder.

But.. I know I'll be fine. Hopefully...

"Lying"

Last night I was talking to R on the phone from like 11.34pm - 1.55am. And during that time, K was working. And since I needed someone to talk to, coz H had FB-ed me about stupid stuff. I had already FB-ed R about it. And he attempted to call me. But I was busy on the phone with K when he was on his break so he couldn't get through.

After the call with K, I texted R and asked him what he called me for. Then within like 5 seconds, he called me and we talked for like 2hrs 20mins. BUT! K said that he would call me around 12.45am if i hadn't texted him to say that I was going to sleep. But he ended up calling me about 1.10am. So I had to put R on hold for a while until K's break was over.

When he asked me what I was doing and if I was watching drama or FB-ing. I was like, "No." He asked if he had woken me up. I was like, "No.." He then asked what was I doing then? I was like "Erm.. Nothing.. Talking?" He was like, "To?" And I was like, "Erm.. You....?" He was like, "No. I mean before I called you." I was like "Erm.. Uh..." Then he asked, "So what were you doing then?" I was like, "Erm.. So! Are you on your break now? How long is your break?" And he was like, "Honey! Don't change the topic! Answer my question!" Then I was like, "Naww... How about you answer me first?" He said, "OK. Yes. I'm on my toilet break. So it will only be for a couple of minutes. Now you answer my question." I was like, 'Aww..."

I tried changing the topic. I didn't want to tell him that I was talking to R.. Coz you know, R is his biggest threat and knowing that I was talking to him at that time of the night. I think he would've gone all mental at me... So I had to "lie" to him.. I didn't realize that I had lied to him until R pointed it out when I told him.. Sigh. But yeah, in the end, I told him that I was sleeping :/

Hmm.. I guess K would've figured that I was lying to him. Coz I texted him after I got off the phone with R and he [K] texted back saying that he thought that I was asleep. And Asked if I was lying to him. I was like *GULP* Scary K mode! O___O! But yeah, I decided to ignore that text haha!

SIGH.... I think I will eventually end up telling him that I was on the phone with R last night.. I don't want to keep it from him and yeah... Just doesn't feel right.. And obviously, don't want him to get the wrong idea!!!!! x

Mommy

Aww! My mommy has left us this morning to catch the train to Auckland. Aww I miss her already :( She's going to HK on Suunday afternoon for a week. She'll be back on Friday but won't get back to PN till Saturday evening. Sigh. I miss her.

Now us four kids are stuck with dad. Not that we hate him or anything. Just that he can be quite hard to communicate with sometimes. And he can be quite scary sometimes... Most of the times? And we may end up having all these arguments coz he just doesn't understand us. He's stuck with his morals and ancient ways.. But hopefully, we'll be all good. No arguments and all while mum has gone for the week! :S

I wish mommy a safe trip there and back. And hope she has fun while in Auckland and HK. It's about time my mommy had a trip where she relaxed and didn't have to stress and worry so much.

I love you mom!!! And I miss you!!!

❤

Work

Somehow, it seems that my manager, L, at Valleygirl, doesn't seem to like me that much... At the moment? I don't know. Maybe I'm thinking too much. Coz yesterday when I walked into work she was like to P, our Senior Store Manager [SSM] and said in a surprised toned or shocked [I don't know which one], "Is Q working today?!" And I just kept walking and pretended not to hear that.

I mean I may of been a bit grumpy on Wednesday when I was working. I don't know why. But it could've been the fact that it was the [primary & secondary] school holidays and it got real busy at work and I gto stressed with all the put backs. But yeah. She asked if I was OK. Coz I seemed a bit grumpy. Then later on, she asked me to improve on my customer service coz she had been watching me the whole time and hadn't seen any coming from. So that added more pressure to me. SO yeah..

Today when I walked in, to see if the top that my mom wanted to buy and could wear when she goes to HK tomorrow [for a week]. When I walked in, L saw me and said in a low voice to P, "What is she doing here?" And I was just like, oh my God. Like can't I walk in the store without a reason or something? Like what the hell is her problem??

Right now, I don't really want to work with her aye. I prefer working with our 2IC [2nd in charge], A, even though she can be more demanding in ways of getting our jobs done. But she's quite nice and doesn't give you that much of a pressure I guess. But then again, A and L are like good friends. So if L doesn't like me.. Then A might start picking on me too? Well I hope not.

All I know at the moment is, the other Sales Assistant [SA], M, who started working at the same time as me, is pretty cool, nice and eay to communicate with. And with our SSM. She's very nice and kind. I like her. And never have doubted her kindness. She seems to always look out for me. I like her :)