Another Girl

Why does he have to be talking about other girls?? Last night on the phone, he randomly bought up that he'd go flirt or something like that with my Korean friend, M, who lives/studies in Auckland. He met her when I was up in Auckland in June. He told me that time, that he thought she was cute coz of the fact that she was so quiet and shy. The way that she talked was quiet [=calm] which made her so cute and stuff like. At that point, we were just friends. So I didn't really mind him saying that, and considering it was me, who asked what he thought about her.

Later on, he tells me that, if we weren't going out, he would've been considering M, and thinking about asking her out and getting to know her and all. I was like, "Oh..." But I didn't take it to heart. But somehow, last night, when he said that he would go find M, coz I wouldn't do something [or something like that], he said he'd go find her, and I said, you don't know where she lives. He goes, "I have my ways of finding out." After that, I some what, felt all upset and sad. I don't know why.. But I just did...

He then realized that I was no longer in a happy mood and apologized for saying that. And that it was only a joke. I was like OK.. I told him to sleep, as it was getting late and he had work early in the morning at 4am. So I didn't want him to be so tired considering it was like nearly 12am. He said he'd call me again tomorrow.

After we hung up, I texted R, coz he texted me about 11.15pm asking if I was still awake, but at that time, I was on the phone with K. So I texted him that and then later on, he called me. And we ended up having a 2hr 2mins talk. The battery on his phone ran out. So we ended the conversation then.

Anyways! So I told R about the situation, coz he asked how me and K were going. I was like, "Meh. The same old." [in Cantonese]. And he was like, "Wow, you don't seem too happy. I thought when girls are dating someone, and get asked that question, they get all excited and say it's good not "The same old" ..." So that's when I told him the situation. He said that it was normal for me to be upset. Considering he did talk about another girl. And saying, who wouldn't be upset in that situation?

I told him, that I don't mind him talking about other girls. As long as it wasn't about [dating/flirting etc.] with my sisters or friends. If it was just a random girl in town or on the streets, then I wouldn't mind. Then R said, "Wow. You have such a good [tolerance] temper/"thoughtful". You're such a good person! You're my idol!" I was like, "Haha. Am I?"

But yeah, anyways, I told him that now that I think about it, I think that I was quite immature/childish just getting upset over such little thing. Considering how unlikely its going to happen [him and M]. But R said that it wasn't immature/childish. It's normal. And that K shouldn't of said such thing.

Later on he asked if k knew that I was talking to him on the phone. I said no. Coz I think we all know that K will be unhappy if he knew. R was like, "That's really sad that you're not allowed to talk to your other [guy] friends.." Then I told him, "Na. Well, if I put myself in his shoes, and he was talking to his [close] female friend all the, like me and you do. I would get quite unhappy and jealous as well. So I understand where he is coming from." He was like, "Hmm..."

So in the end, you could say that, R made me happy again. Although I still think about it. But no matter how much R can make me happy and smile when I'm down, I will still love K. My heart will always belong to him, no matter how much he annoys me, pisses me off, makes me angry or upset at him etc. I will still love him in the end. Coz I know he truly loves me...

Am I stupid.............?