Things So Far

So I haven't written here for a very long time. Sorry. I keep forgetting. Well I guess quite a lot has been happening, so I guess maybe this will be one long blog or maybe I will split this blog to two parts. Mmmm..

Hmmm! Where should I start? Umm.. Well. Ok. Let's start with the fact the I'm over K2. Well I thought that I wouldn't get over him coz he's such a 'perfect' guy. Everytime I see him, it's like "Oh. My dream guy. I need someone like him." But then after a while, I just forget about him, and not like all over him. But I will always remember him for taking me home, from alllll the way from Wellington back to Palmy. *Thanks K2!*

Next thing, Hmm.. is probably.. that I have FINALLY got a job. No. make it TWO jobs. At Mcds and Rubi Shoes (and at Cotton on). Yeah. Ilove working at Mcds. It's so fun. And the first day that I worked there (not the training bit), I hadn't got my full uniform yet, so I had to work at the back, not the counter, and this hot maori guy had to train me at the back, cooking patties and nuggets and what not. He's so nice and talkative. I like that. He's so cool. But the I found out that he was actaully TWO years YOUNGER than me! o_o and I was like aww!! That sucks bad! =( Time to find a new target. *Sigh* But then I went back a couple of days later to Mcds for breakfast and he was working there, and man. I don't think I can resist him.. yet. So now i kinda hope that i can work at the front next time so I don't have to drool over a younger guy but then again, I do want to drool over him. Oh. Life sucks. haha.


And with working at Rubi Shoes, well I haven't quite yet started working there. But I have my first shift this Friday, from 11 a.m. to 6 p.m. but the thing is, I gotta go back to my parents shop to work. And the last bus back to my parents shop is at 6 p.m. and on a Friday BOTH places (Rubi Shoes & my parents shop) are busy. So I dunno. Hopefully I can get my manager to let me leave at 5 p.m. so I can catch the 5.25 p.m. bus back to my parents place >< *fingers crossed*


And ANOTHER (big) problem is that, next month on the 4th I'm going to HK, and I don't really want to, coz I have pretty much started both of my jobs, and there you, probably, less than a month, and I'm outta here for 2 weeks. I feel so bad and not good.. I'm sure Mcds will be OK with it. It's just Rubi Shoes. I hope they're OK with it. Coz in a way, I'm ready for them to end the contract after it finishes (duh) coz I don't want to work there as a casual. And then again, I want to stay there coz it's been like my dream to work at a retail store. So.... I dunno. Let's just see how it all goes. Maybe my mum will be right about how they will let me stay if they see how I worked hard enough and all. But yeah. I want to see if they let me change it to part-time not a casual job -IF they let me stay and extend my contract that is.

Oh yeah. And so I did well in my exams. But obviously a big fat E for my physical geography. Yup. I knew that was coming (haha). But that's OK. As long as I passed my other papers.


OH! And can't forget about this great news!! Me and my two girls went to watch Twilight saga: NEW MOON yesterday! OMG! it was soooo awesome! Jacob Black (Taylor Lautner) was sooooo freakin' hot!!! It's like *DROOL* @___@ I love him soo much. He's like my dream/ideal man. OMGOSH!!! Love him! And yes. He is only 17. *sigh* Once again, younger than me. Oh what a shame (haha).

Hmmm.. Next thing. Errr... I need to go christmas shopping. Oh crap! And I still need to re-enrol for uni and studylink. Oh crud. Maybe I will go shopping tomorrow? Aw! I dunno. Life's so complicated right now (haha). It's so hard buying a gift for a guy. Considering how many guy friends I have ><>

Confused

Hmmm.. I think I MAY have developed some feelings for R... Oh I don't know! ><

He makes me smile all the time and like we can be mean to each other, without neither of us having a nut at each other. I mean, to me, he is the perfect guy for me. BUT! it's the INSIDE that captures me, not the OUTSIDE. I'm not trying to be mean or anything, but he's not that good-looking. Not even average, I must say. Everybody who has meet him, has told me that he looks like a nerd. And hey, I don't have anything against them or anything. Just that, sometimes he DOES look a bit clueless/lost and I don't know.. puts me off maybe? But he's l

ike sooo adorable and all from the inside. I love him for that. 

Sometimes, when I think about it, and then see other girls with their oh-so-hot boyfriends, I feel like, 'Oh, why can't I find a good-looking boyfriend like her?' I mean, yeah, that may sound pretty greedy of me, but that's how I feel. And then sometimes I'd think to myself, 'Well, I'm sure that if I love him enough, I wouldn't care about his looks', but you know what? I don't think I can do that, just yet. 

Maybe I am waiting for some good-looking/average guy to knock at my door. But.. Somehow, I think that it would be impossible.. Don't know why I think that. But I do. I really do like R. But, maybe it's coz I can't handle the criticism of 'Why the hell are you going out with a guy like him?' and all that. Or maybe it's really the fact that his appearance REALLy does not capture my heart. I wish he would look average at least. I don't care whether he's got money or not. Average wealth is fine to me. I just want what he's got in the inside, and possibly, a better looking outside... I hope. 

And maybe when that day finally comes, it would be too late. Maybe he would've found someone else who like him for who he is -from the inside and out. Or maybe.. I would've found someone better? But who knows. All I know is that I want someone like him. But a bit better looking on the outside. He's perfect on the inside. But not so perfect on the outside. *sigh* But don't worry. I will still be thinking about this situation. I want to go out with him and become his gf, but.. there are just so many 'buts'. I think I'm thinking like this is all mainly focused on his appearance. Sorry R. You will have to wait longer...

So Bored..

Well, not a lot has been happening lately. Just you know, right now is the start of the exam month/'season'. And I have been preparing for my physical geography exam (which was this morning) for like the last 5 or so days. Man, was it hard work, cramming everything into my head or what? I kept

getting distracted... and seem to always lose concentration. Well, I guess I finally got through. Though last night, I practically 'died'. Felt so wasted, so tired, so sleepy. Got about 3 hours nap. Wasn't that comfy but was an OK sleep. But felt good and recharged afterwards! Yeah, so I woke up at 7.30 a.m. to go take a shower and then spend a couple of minutes studying for my geo exam. Did some last minute studying and yeah, went into the exam room. When it started, sort of did alright in Section A. Sort of OK in Section B and didn't do Section C, as I had no idea on any of those topics. One thing I'm pissed about is, that I screwed up the Carbon cycle! And last night, my brother (DC) was teaching me and telling me about it. *Sigh* What a let down =(

Anyways. So I've only got two more exams to go. The Chinese and the Japanese one. Hope it all goes well!

Hmm.. Well, recently, K asked me this question on Facebook (FB), "When are you going to give me your heart.. hahaha". This question got asked was mainly coz of this FB application. I think it was called the 'Give Hearts' application(?). Yeah, well, I give him those hearts, pretty much everyday. But I also give them to other people too. He said that as well as saying that the heart that I had just given was a 'very nice heart'. So I answered to that 'unusual' question, 'Umm... I don't know.' and then yeah, he asked me again, and I said that I didn't know what he was talking about, and he said that I was a smart girl, and that I should be able to work it out. I told him that I didn't want to get the wrong idea, and so yeah, he won't tell me, but I'm hoping that it's not what I think it is...

I mean, I wouldn't know what to do if you know.. it's actually what I think it is, that he's trying to get 'through' to me. So yeah... I'd like to know, but at the same time, I don't want to know the truth...

Mmm.. I'm feeling so tired and restless here.. I have a sore back at the moment... I have nothing much to do... I want to go see R, but I don't know whether he is up yet or not (even though it's like 2.51 p.m now) and I think maybe he will be studying...? So yeah.. and I don't want to go home yet... Man. I feel so .. miserable(?) and bored over here... *sigh*

Close Buddies

Yep. Once again, I haven't been blogging for quite a while. 

Well anyways, yesterday was R's birthday. So I decided to get him a birthday cake, coz he said he wanted a chocolate cake from New World. But the thing was, I didn't realize that the cake that he wanted was the one on Pioneer Highway not the one on Broadway Ave. Luckily! I went with H after I helped him out with his essay and having lunch with him and his friend. Yeah, so we went to the one on Broadway Ave first, by bus. We went there, and we 

couldn't find the one that he wanted, so we went to Woolworths across the street. We couldn't find any. But I think we bought some nice silver candles from there. So went carried on with out trip, by foot(!), in the rain (it was raining every now and then), very windy too! We walked back to Downtown, as I had needed to go to the bathroom, on the way there, I saw that hot BK manager again!! *yay* ^^ 

So me and H were just walking from A to B. It was pretty far I tell you. I think it took us about 20 minutes to walk all the way t the Pioneer Highway New World. Was sure  a tough journey.. But luckily I had company with me! We made quite a few trips to other shops and places for the candles, decorations for his (R's) cake and also H wanted to go rent out a game. Man, we walked for like 2 - 3 hours, straight up. And man, were we tired or what?! Finally, when we were just outside his place, we had to decorate his cake with some candles we bought on the way, from Pak 'n' Save. They were some "Happy Birthday" candles. Very pretty after we decorated the cake. Of course. We missed out one thing, the lighter, so we could light up the candle. And R said that he doesn't  have one at his place. But we went to his place anyway

s, since we were so tired. When we got there, I said 'happy Birthday' to him. And then we just sat down on his bed and watched this Cantonese drama with him. After that, we just mucked around in his room, K2 said that we will have dinner at 6.30 p.m. and I got hungry so i searched for food in his room (haha) and  I found some panda cookie thing to eat. Was good enough for my stomach. Shut my stomach up for then.

So we went out at about 6.45 p.m. We finally decided that we would go to Aqaba to have dinner. I ordered a Thai Green Curry Chicken, R ordered a Scotch Fillet -he also had dessert (Black Forest Cheesecake) afterwards too, and H ordereed the same Scotch fillet and I'm not really sure what K2 ordered. But it was some sorta fish fillet thing. Was a great atmosphere. We all laughed, talked, joked around and everything. Was certainly a good night. Then about  8 p.m. we went back to his place, me and H had to go to Countdown, to go buy a lighter so we could light up the candles. When we got back, we went into their kitchen place and we lit the candles and all, got cameras out, put the lights on, etc etc. We sang him the "Happy Birthday" song and then R blew out the candles. And then we finally got to eat the chocolate gâteaux (cake). Was yum. K2 thought it was better than (who I think it was - R's ex gf's) cake from some years ago... But R disagreed. I didn't care. Coz for K2 liked it, so I'm all good with that! =)

After eating that one piece of cake, we washed the dishes, we just all crowded around the sink, while me and H were washing the dishes. And then we all went back to R's room. We then decided to go home, so K2 took me and H home at about 9 p.m. 

Hmmm!! I think it was a great day! Though I still can't believe that I had to go through ALL that just for R! (haha), I think that was the FIRST time ever, that I have ever done such thing. But in the end, I knew it was worth it, considering that I would have nothing else to give him on his first birthday celebration with me! ^^ I think altogether i spent about $30 on his birthday ("present"). But it's worth it, coz he's such a good friend! 

Not Bad

Yeah. So long time no blogging. Hmm.. Well here are my thoughts. 

I've decided to give up on K2, seeing as there are absolutely no chance that I will ever get a chance to be his girlfriend. And it's not like he's showing any interests to me.. =( Sad. I know. But that's OK. At least now I don;t have to be hung up on some stupid guy (even though he is still me friend - though we aren't that close). 

Also, I still have R, so it's OK. We can still have fun together. And I know that R doesn't like me (more than a friend), coz he told me that, he talks differently to the girl he likes (apparently that Malaysian girl we saw at IPC. He think she's hot. But I think she looks really.. boring ><>

AND! I met a new friend, H. Though you could say we sorta met via Facebook - R's page (haha). So we got to know each other and talked a lot on Facebook and then got each others numbers and then started talking on MSN. Yeah. Apparently he's seen me around at uni (that's pretty much how we first had our 'convo'). BUt to be honest, I have never seen him around at uni before... @_@ H is a good guy. He's very kind, and a very forgiving person. Though.. Honestly... He's not that great looking. BUT! He's got style. And you know? It doesn't seem to bother me that much, how guys don't look so 'hot'. It's the INSIDE that counts. 

I mean, I thought K2 was hot and all. But do I have a chance with him? No. I don't think so. But for now, I like to think of all of my guy mates, just as friends! xD Makes my life easier. Less things to think about. 

LIKE at First Sight

Well, before I get started about this 'crush' thing of mine. I'll just say a bit about what happened yesterday when I saw J. OK. So I saw him and we just talked and all. BUT! I didn't ask him or talk to him about him 'betraying' me or whatever. I don't know why. Maybe it's because... I believe that he didn't 'betray' me? Hmm... I don't know. I think that I will tell him when he asks about him (G). Like if he says/asks, 'How's G?' then I'd probably be like, 'We're not friends anymore. Didn't you know? I thought you guys were good friends and he tells you everything.....!' Hmm... yeah. Probably something like that huh? 

ANYWAYS! Back to my.. "happy" story. Well, it goes like this. Last Tuesday, R introduced me to his good friend, K2. Well, actually, I was just hanging out with R, and then he told me that he was actually planning on having dinner with his friend and said that I could join them. So I did, since I didn't want to go home yet and R said that K2 could take me home. When K2 walked into R's room, I was like to myself,' WHOAAAA! Hottie....!' But you know, I wasn't like, all heads over heels for him or anything. Just thought. 'Oh. he's good looking.' That's it. Yeah, so we went to this Italian restaurant up at Summerhill Il Capo pasta & Pizzeria @ 7 p.m. or something like that. We ordered two pizzas and one pasta. They were pretty tasty pizzas and pasta. Though it was like $12 for a small pizza. It was quite filling. But pretty small too. After that, we just sat there and had a little chat, K2 ate most of the pizzas and pasta, coz I was too full and didn't want my big stomach to show (haha) and R was sick so he couldn't eat much.

We left at like 8 p.m. and K2 drove me home. I really think that K2 is like the BEST looking guy I've ever seen so far. Well, not in a while anyways. I mean, he's single, from Hong Kong, only 23, good looking, most likely a rich guy, have good style and such a gentleman. I must say he is someone that I'd like to go out with. He's a potential boyfriend for me. But I thing that I would have no chance, I mean, he's such a good looking guy so why would he go for someone like me? I don't think he's "desperate" for a girlfriend and would have any problems in finding a potential girlfriend. He's so good looking and such a nice guy. How hard would it be for him to find a girl? 

*Sigh* When I find the right guy, he's just too good for me. When there are plenty of guys around me, none of them are right for me... Life is hard, huh? And the thing is, K2 thinks that me and R are going out!! OMG. That's just even more tragic. Coz that'll mean that, he won't go for me, coz he thinks that his friend is going out with me!! OMG!! That's so not good!! I wonder how I can get to him... I'm not desperate. But you know. I do want him to be my boyfriend. Since he is the kind of guy I want. In a way, you could say that he is the "perfect" guy for me... xD So we'll see how things go, huh? Wish me luck!! ><

No longer Friends

Yeah. So I haven't been blogging since.. last week I think. Not a lot has been happening. But, I'll sum up on 

what has been happening so far plus what I will really talk about regarding that title up there.. haha. Well. On Saturday 19th, it was the Sakura Festival at IPC (International Pacific College) and me and my friends R a

nd (New friend. Introduced to me last Tuesday by R) K2 (Yes. Another K lol) went to the festival together @ 12.30 p.m. K2 drove us up there. We just walked around a bit. Trying to find some (good) food to eat and yeah, just looking around really. And meet a lot of my friends there. And so did K2. And oh my gosh! K2 thinks that me and R are going out! WHAT THE HELL?! No way! >O<; K2 is pretty good looking (and single) I might just add ;) 

Anyways!! So, what I wanted to blog about today is that, yesterday was G's birthday, and I decided I should play my part, and say 'happy birthday' to him. I wanted to say it via Facebook. But I found out that he had actually deleted me off Facebook. I don't know when exactly. But I'm thinking it was about a couple of weeks or so ago. So i decided to text him 'happy birthday'. I texted to him 'Thanks for deleting me off Facebook. I'd just like to say. Happy birthday. Hope you had a good one. oh. and have a nice life. bye.' (Haha I purposely put 'have a nice life there haha). And then he replied with a NASTY AS response (lol). He said 'Bitch f*** off. Jerey told me everything about you. I don't want you near me. Delete my number. I don't wanna hear anything from you. Stay the f*** outta here. You have lost all my respect. I'm having a good life without you in my business. So once again f*** off arse whole and I mean it.' 

Man that made me laugh. I mean, for a start, he spelt his 'good' friend, J, WRONG!

 And he tried to spell "asshole" but he spelt it with a "W"!! I mean what the hell? If you want to swear, at least spell it right. Secondly, he says, 'you have lost all my respect.' Well for his information, he has never fully respected me. So what the hell is he trying to say? Oh yeah. That's right. He's once again, the person that's right. Was doing the 'right' thing all along and also the "victim". Yeahhhhh right. He never considers other people's feelings. Everything HAS to be about HIM. It's like the world revolves around HIM ONLY. So selfish. But whatever. I don't give a damn about that freak no more anyways. I played my role. I never said anything as nasty to him as he had to me. And don't worry. I won't say anything to him, in order to defend myself. I will refrain myself from saying nasty things about him or to him. I have put up with him for so long. And yet. He treats me like shit and thinks that HE was the one getting treated like shit and is right about everything. He is soo inconsiderate. I hate people like him. Either way, I don't care about him anymore. We will go our own separate ways. I don't care what he does or says. And I, myself, is definitely having a good, relaxing life without him as well. No one to cling onto me, no one to have stupid arguments with and most importantly, no one to hurt me over and over again with their hurtful words. I will never miss anything about him. NEVER. Will NOT think about the good times we had. Will NOT think about how he hurt me. But now. All I know is that, NEVER be friends with black people. They are all such complicating people. I'm sorry to judge all black people on just one person. But, if you think about it, it's true... 

On the other hand, I'd like to know why, my best guy friend, J, told G everything! And yet, he was the one that told me that, 'everything that we talk about (G) is just between us'. HUH?! What happened to that?! I trusted him, that's why I THOUGHT I could tell him how i felt about G and there he  goes telling G!! WHAT THE HELL!??!!? He betrayed me!! I don't know whether that is true or not. But I cannot trust anyone, anymore. I won't tell J anything, regarding my feelings for anyone! I can't trust him with that. But I still plan to confront to him about this issue. We'll see what happens when I see J tomorrow,