I got asked today about whether, I have thought about breaking up or ending my relationship with my cute little chub chub because of our age gap and our different set of interests. I was like *GASP!!!* Of course I never thought about breaking up with him or ending it with him!!! I love him to death!!!
The person who asked me then said, "Well, he's quite old and like when you guys move in and you want to go out and party, he'd be like 'Na. Don't go out and spend time with me instead' or that he has to sleep early cos of work, leaving me all alone while he sleeps. But to me, that doesn't matter because I know we will both work things out and he isn't that stubborn (unlike me haha). He's very understanding although he does like to set out a few rules and boundaries. It's not like I mind.
It's better that he has his own thoughts and opinions rather than always having to listen to mine or whatever. We're both equal in our relationship. It's like, if either of us has a point, then we listen to it or follow it, if one of us doesn't have a point, then we obviously choose to ignore and do it our own way.
Yeah we have arguments and all like most couples do, but we have made a promise to not allow any of our arguments and all for more than 24 hours as we both want to start fresh. PLUS, he's always the one to come and apologize first. So what have I go to complain about? He's just so damn sweet and adorable like that. He's so forgiving and has such a big heart. So why would I even think about ending things with such a sweet guy?
Just because he's 6 years my senior, doesn't mean that there will be anything that will come between us, socially or whatever else other may think of. Our love is strong enough to go through anything that intends to pull us apart or any tests that we may have to face in the future. I love him for who he is, and I know he loves me for who I am. So why should I think about such absurd things? I don't want to ever end this amazing relationship that we have built up so far. He means the world to me :')
Monday, April 30, 2012
Going Back Again
It's only been a day since he left for Auckland again. Yet, I still miss him like mad and think about everything that we had done the past week that he had been here.... I really hate it when he has to go back.... :( I know we've been doing this for nearly 21 months, him coming down to see me every month and then having to go back in a short time. But no matter how long or short the time that he has spent here with me, I know I know I should be use to the whole cycle already.. But in fact, I'm not.. And I don't think I ever will be use to seeing him go.... :(
I don't know why I get so emotional... I know I do love him heaps and never want to see him go, but I've been told to be a little more mature about it. To not get so emotional and always expressing to my family how much I love and miss him. I can't help it.... I just miss that boy so much and want to see him more often than I see him now... I mean seeing him every weekend would be fine with me... But we both lost that chance.
He could've been transferred to Wellington for work. But it got declined and at the same time, I did and didn't want him to. I did cos I do want to see him and I didn't was because I thought that I would get sick of him if I saw him every weekend. But now it's too late as I now know that I would never get sick of him no matter how much I see him. I regret for hoping that he won't be transferred to Wellington.. But there is nothing we can do about it now..
I don't understand how guys are able to hold in their feelings so well. Whenever I cry, he comforts me by saying that I shouldn't cry cos then I won't be pretty. He makes me smile so much, even when typing out this makes my eyes fill up with tears... I have a feeling that he does want to cry too but just not in front of me. But sometimes I wish he would show some emotion that he's sad to leave as well. I know he's sad but I want him to show it...
My mum tells me that he is mature about love and that I should learn that from him as well. I don't know, but I just can't. He is my first and only love. It's so hard on me... I know I will feel better after a few days or a week... I try to tell myself to be more brave and less emotional like him, but I just can't... I want to express all this feeling inside me to him, but I don't want to seem like a crazy emotional girlfriend that seems like she can't live without him. I just miss him so much and want to see him after work or every weekend... I know that I won't be the type of person who will jump off the cliff or commit suicide if anything bad goes wrong in our relationship.. But I guess I will cry so much every night and every moment that I think of, which happened during out happy times.... I miss him so much..
I really can't wait til I finally get to move in with him then I will get to see him all the time and be able to sleep beside him every night and wake up with him beside me every morning.
I don't know why I get so emotional... I know I do love him heaps and never want to see him go, but I've been told to be a little more mature about it. To not get so emotional and always expressing to my family how much I love and miss him. I can't help it.... I just miss that boy so much and want to see him more often than I see him now... I mean seeing him every weekend would be fine with me... But we both lost that chance.
He could've been transferred to Wellington for work. But it got declined and at the same time, I did and didn't want him to. I did cos I do want to see him and I didn't was because I thought that I would get sick of him if I saw him every weekend. But now it's too late as I now know that I would never get sick of him no matter how much I see him. I regret for hoping that he won't be transferred to Wellington.. But there is nothing we can do about it now..
I don't understand how guys are able to hold in their feelings so well. Whenever I cry, he comforts me by saying that I shouldn't cry cos then I won't be pretty. He makes me smile so much, even when typing out this makes my eyes fill up with tears... I have a feeling that he does want to cry too but just not in front of me. But sometimes I wish he would show some emotion that he's sad to leave as well. I know he's sad but I want him to show it...
My mum tells me that he is mature about love and that I should learn that from him as well. I don't know, but I just can't. He is my first and only love. It's so hard on me... I know I will feel better after a few days or a week... I try to tell myself to be more brave and less emotional like him, but I just can't... I want to express all this feeling inside me to him, but I don't want to seem like a crazy emotional girlfriend that seems like she can't live without him. I just miss him so much and want to see him after work or every weekend... I know that I won't be the type of person who will jump off the cliff or commit suicide if anything bad goes wrong in our relationship.. But I guess I will cry so much every night and every moment that I think of, which happened during out happy times.... I miss him so much..
I really can't wait til I finally get to move in with him then I will get to see him all the time and be able to sleep beside him every night and wake up with him beside me every morning.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
My Little Chub Chub
I miss my cute little chub chub boyfriend. I don't know what it was that made me fall for him, or why I fell for him out of the many other boys out there. After being together for nearly 21 months, going long-distance, I feel that we have been together for wayyy longer than that. I feel so close to him. Although we only get to see each other once a month -whether it's one week a month or one and a half day a month, I love to spend every second and every moment with him. Happy or sad. I don't know what it was that makes me feel so close and comfortable around him, but what I do know, is that I have definitely fallen for this boy :)
My cute little chub chub may be, fat, short, old, chubby, have a big belly, have a double chin and even have man boobs! :O and he sleeps a lot and eats a lot but to me, he will always be perfect to me. He's just so damn adorable no matter how fat or chubby he is. With all those "negatives", I don't know why I love this boy. But I do. Sometimes I think to myself, 'Why did I choose this little chubby boy to be my boyfriend?' I don't know why, but I'm very glad he is mine.
I never thought I'd end up loving someone who isn't the typical "prince charming". I had always wanted a guy who was taller than me, older than me by a couple of years (not 6 years hehe), slim or a fit build and to have great style. Right now, my boyfriend doesn't fit in any of those categories but there's something about him that I love no matter what his appearance is. I know that he accepts all my flaws and still loves me and cares for me (without always showing it directly *sad face*).
He has taught me the meaning of "love". That love isn't based on looks and charm. But it is based on your heart and mind which allows you to accept the other person for who they are and what they are without any discrimination or judgement. That's what I love about him. No matter how many flaws I've got, he will always love me and be there for me and in return, I will always love him no matter what his flaws are or his appearance becomes to be.
I may not be able to wear high heels when I am around him or with him (although he doesn't mind his girlfriend being taller than him) but I don't want to seem like I'm dating my younger brother? Haha so I guess I'll have to sacrifice a little just for him. Not that I wear high heels that often anyways... Hehe.
Whenever I just sit there and look at my boyfriend, it make me smile. He's so cute and adorable in every way. To me, he seems like a little child doing whatever he's doing. He's so damn cute and adorable. His cheeks are so cute and chubby -and not only that, but they are ever so soft and so irresistibly kissable hehe.
Of course, I do not wish to see my cute honey to get any fatter or chubbier, cos I don't want him to be fat and short hehe but no matter what, he will always be the apple of my eye. I don't know why I chose him and how I fell so deeply for him, but what I do know, is that it's hard to find someone who is "perfect" and to find someone who loves you for you.
I love you, my cute little chub chub!!! ♥
My cute little chub chub may be, fat, short, old, chubby, have a big belly, have a double chin and even have man boobs! :O and he sleeps a lot and eats a lot but to me, he will always be perfect to me. He's just so damn adorable no matter how fat or chubby he is. With all those "negatives", I don't know why I love this boy. But I do. Sometimes I think to myself, 'Why did I choose this little chubby boy to be my boyfriend?' I don't know why, but I'm very glad he is mine.
I never thought I'd end up loving someone who isn't the typical "prince charming". I had always wanted a guy who was taller than me, older than me by a couple of years (not 6 years hehe), slim or a fit build and to have great style. Right now, my boyfriend doesn't fit in any of those categories but there's something about him that I love no matter what his appearance is. I know that he accepts all my flaws and still loves me and cares for me (without always showing it directly *sad face*).
He has taught me the meaning of "love". That love isn't based on looks and charm. But it is based on your heart and mind which allows you to accept the other person for who they are and what they are without any discrimination or judgement. That's what I love about him. No matter how many flaws I've got, he will always love me and be there for me and in return, I will always love him no matter what his flaws are or his appearance becomes to be.
I may not be able to wear high heels when I am around him or with him (although he doesn't mind his girlfriend being taller than him) but I don't want to seem like I'm dating my younger brother? Haha so I guess I'll have to sacrifice a little just for him. Not that I wear high heels that often anyways... Hehe.
Whenever I just sit there and look at my boyfriend, it make me smile. He's so cute and adorable in every way. To me, he seems like a little child doing whatever he's doing. He's so damn cute and adorable. His cheeks are so cute and chubby -and not only that, but they are ever so soft and so irresistibly kissable hehe.
Of course, I do not wish to see my cute honey to get any fatter or chubbier, cos I don't want him to be fat and short hehe but no matter what, he will always be the apple of my eye. I don't know why I chose him and how I fell so deeply for him, but what I do know, is that it's hard to find someone who is "perfect" and to find someone who loves you for you.
I love you, my cute little chub chub!!! ♥
Monday, April 9, 2012
No Invitation!
From a girl's perspective, if one of your (close) male friend/family member/colleague EVER touched you in an inappropriate way, what would you do and how would you respond?
I know someone who recently has been in that position. Let's call the girl, Juliet and the boy, Peter. So Juliet was attempting to take a photo on the floor of an item, on her knees, bending down with her butt up (not in an inviting way or in an intentional way), and Peter was sitting beside her, as she was about to take the photo Peter unexpectedly smacked Juliet's butt. Not only that, but her parents were around too. Juliet smacked Peter and then moved away from Peter to continue to take the photo.
Juliet felt humiliated and violated, she didn't want to be around him anymore. She went to sleep crying cos she felt that in a way, she had "betrayed" her boyfriend. If she told her boyfriend, she knew that he would go ballistic and would actually go over to Peter's house and "destroy" him for touching his girlfriend's butt. She wanted to tell him, but wanted to keep the peace between the both of them. She 'hated' Peter for doing that but he was also one of her good(?) friends.
I don't understand it. Especially when a girl clearly has a boyfriend, why the hell would a guy friend still attempt to do such thing?? Although both guys aren't exactly what you call "friends" but still, doesn't mean the guy friend can do that. He can't treat her like she's his girlfriend just cos he likes her but she's taken.
This irritates me. I hate men who take advantage of having a close female friend in a sexual way. Especially when she did not ask for it!!! Guys just really need to control themselves!!! ARGGH!!!
I know someone who recently has been in that position. Let's call the girl, Juliet and the boy, Peter. So Juliet was attempting to take a photo on the floor of an item, on her knees, bending down with her butt up (not in an inviting way or in an intentional way), and Peter was sitting beside her, as she was about to take the photo Peter unexpectedly smacked Juliet's butt. Not only that, but her parents were around too. Juliet smacked Peter and then moved away from Peter to continue to take the photo.
Juliet felt humiliated and violated, she didn't want to be around him anymore. She went to sleep crying cos she felt that in a way, she had "betrayed" her boyfriend. If she told her boyfriend, she knew that he would go ballistic and would actually go over to Peter's house and "destroy" him for touching his girlfriend's butt. She wanted to tell him, but wanted to keep the peace between the both of them. She 'hated' Peter for doing that but he was also one of her good(?) friends.
I don't understand it. Especially when a girl clearly has a boyfriend, why the hell would a guy friend still attempt to do such thing?? Although both guys aren't exactly what you call "friends" but still, doesn't mean the guy friend can do that. He can't treat her like she's his girlfriend just cos he likes her but she's taken.
This irritates me. I hate men who take advantage of having a close female friend in a sexual way. Especially when she did not ask for it!!! Guys just really need to control themselves!!! ARGGH!!!
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