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He seriously is the BEST boyfriend EVER!! I love him so much. I don't know what I'd do without him aye. I know he loves me, and the fact that he will like me, and me only.

Although, during our 2 weeks of actual dating, we have been through quite a lot of "arguements" and "disagreements". But you know, we got over it and talked it out. There seriously cannot be any other guy that is better than him! I can feel how much he loves and cares for me.

I love him so much. All I want to do is to, see him everyday [not 24/7] and to be able to hug, hold hands with him, kiss, touch and cuddle with him. I really want to be with him all the time.

Just looking at his face, makes me smile. A REALLY REALLY BIG SMILE!! :) He's just so adorable. I love him so much. But sadly... Next week he is leaving to go back to Auckland... Oh I'm going to be SOO sad and lonely without him... The smile on my face would just disappear without seeing him.. I love everything about him.

I don't want him to leave.. Even though he said he will come back in a couple of months. I will miss him soo much... !!!

But you know, while he's here, we will make the most of it! Make good memories together and reminise everyday about them.... *sigghhh.....* :)

First Gift

Well, today, K has officially bought me the first gift [besides the pink roses and the chocolate, when he asked me out]. He bought me this SEXY, PINK, LEOPARD PRINT [sort of] handbag!! Oh my gosh!!! And I love it!!

Although... It wasn't him that personally chose it, but he knew how much I wanted it and told me to get it. I was like, "Aww.. OK.." And he was like, "And I can pay for it." I was like, "Seriously?!" He's like, "Yeah, I haven't gotten you anything." I was like, "Yes you have. You got me a key ring, that "Me to You" bear, some origami stars and cranes in a box and also lots of cards." He's like, "Na, that's different. And you can take this everywhere, youcan't take those everywhere" I was like, "No it ain't different. And yeah. I'll tell everyone that my sexy boyfriend bought me this bag. Hahaha."

So in the end, my honey bought it for me. I was soo happy! Though in fact, I was planning to buy it myself. But you know, it's nice to know that your boyfriend got you something and now that you can show it off. Though it's not something oh-so-expensive or a designer item. I mean, it was like $30 something. But still. The value of the item isn't important. It's the fact that HE bought it for me and it was FROM him.

I ❤ him.

Sorting Things Out

So last night, me and K got it all sorted. When he drove me home, he made this long as speech, telling me how sorry and regretful he was. Saying that the went over the line and that he was just joking and that he didn't know that it would come to this and make me unhappy/upset. The whole way through, I didn't talk to him. Before that, he even came to back to the labs and tried to apologize and talk to me and ask me what was wrong. I just completely ignored him and even if I answered, it would be "Mmm", "Nothing", "What?", "OK" etc.

He eventually left and went back to the library. He called me twice before he came over. But I ignored it. I texted him that I wasn't in the mood to talk. I just was so upset. I just didn't want to talk to him that moment. I preferred texting him than opening my mouth to talk to him. I didn't even want to look at him. Coz I know, that looking a him will make me weak o the knees and I would just automatically would've given in and then it would be pointless to be upset over it.

So in the end, when we were finally at my house. I got all my stuff back [folders and all] and as I turned to look at him before going up the stairs, [coz I do miss him. Hehe], I gave him a hug and he hugged me back soo tight, like he didn't ever want to let go. He then repeated he was sorry and all. That's when I started talking to him.

I told him that it was OK. Coz I have gotten over it and that I have forgiven him. He said that he cannot forgive himself, for not being able to give me happiness and trust. Coz instead, he made me unhappy and upset. And that was what he did not want. I was like, "Aww. It's OK. The past is the past. Just leave it there. We are all good now, OK?" But he still felt regretful and unhappy about that.

Then he said I better go inside now [coz it was like 12am] so I was like OK. He then asked for a good night kiss. I was like sorry, I'm chewing gum. Haha. He was like kiss on the cheek then? I was like, OK. Then he ended up trying to kiss me [on the lips] anyways. Though it wasn't full-on. Haha. I just lvoe my boyfriend so much.

Oh and according to my older sister, [coz they exchanged numbers yesterday], she told me that he was really scared by the expression on my face and that it was the first time ever to see me like that. I was like to her, DUH. Don't expect me to do that as friends. And we weren't that close as friends anyways. Haha.

But anyways, I hope we won't have another one of these "arguments/fights" no more. Coz it's hard being upset or 'angry' at the guy you really like and don't want to lose :)

Trust

Well... So it seems that K and I are having our sort of "first" fight/argument. But you can't really call it an argument. Coz.. I guess it's more like, a misunderstanding and the fact that he doesn't really trust me. And I guess I cannot blame him.

So what happened was that, R texted me, saying, "You liked H." I didn't reply coz I was busy talking with K. Then minutes later, he texted me again and said that, "Lol. I can't believe you with K too. Lol." and K saw that message and I finished reading it before him and I chucked my phone aside. And K wanted to know what it said, coz he saw his name on it. I didn't want him to know what the message said, so I told him that I wasn't gonna let him see it, coz I didn't want their situation to get more awkward. But in the end, I showed him, coz I didn't want him to be unhappy.

Then he asked, "Why did he say "too" as well? There must be something else as well." I was like, no there isn't... And he's like, yes there is. Otherwise he wouldn't say "too". So... I eventually showed him coz I didn't want him to be unhappy. When I did, he said to me, that I was "cheating" on him with another guy. But I told him I wasn't.

He said he believed me and that even if I was cheating on him, he couldn't do anything about it anyways. I was like... So.. Upset when he said that. Coz that just told me that he didn't believe me... And I was telling the honest truth! I wasn't and am NOT cheating on him!! I love him and him only! [But I didn't tell him that]. Then he said that he was gonna give me some time to think about it [my answer] and I was like, there IS nothing to think about! And he's like, "I don't want to get hurt again, so I'm/I'll give you a second chance. If i find out that you are, then I will treat you the same as my ex-[gf]. Coz according to him, she cheated on him and lied to him about it. And he said to himself that he is never going to get hurt by the same girl twice, ever again.

When he told me that he was going to give me a second chance... I was like.. Speechless... I just didn't know what to say... Coz.. I didn't do anything wrong... I mean... I'm telling him the honest truth.. And he's doubting me... I asked him, what does he want me to do, to believe me? And he said, don't know..

Oh the more I write about this, the more I feel the urge to cry.... I'm so unhappy right now.

He left me and went to the library... [but he said he was gonna go there before anyways. I just wanted him to stay with me a bit longer, that's why .. All this happened I guess].

Now.. I don't feel like seeing him or talking to him at the moment.. Coz... I'm just unhappy at the moment...

Misunderstandings..

So there has been some misunderstandings between my boyfriend and R... I know that the atmosphere between them, is quite awkward at the moment.. and I don't want that. Like, in a way, this has become a "bitch fight" over me. Though obviously, R doesn't like me that way. But as you all know, just the way he acts towards me [physically] is totally wrong and dodgy. So.. K got really jealous and annoyed...

But luckily, I talked to both of them. And they seemed fine. Though R said he rather not see or meet/hang out with K for a while, coz he was afraid that K might still be holding a "grudge" against him and beat him up and all. But K said that he isn't that type of person and I told R that.

In the end, they saw each other, coz my mouse died and wouldn't work, and I needed R to come over and fix it for me. And according to R, K still felt a bit "upset/angry" about it. But to me, it seemed like they were OK.

K said that he's OK with it. And that as long as R doesn't touch me inappropriately then he doesn't mind me seeing him [as a friend]. Oh yeah, and H saw me and K together last night when me and K went over to R's place to get his mouse (H and R were having dinner together last night) so that's how he saw.

We could all see that the atmosphere wasn't getting too good. It was a tad uncomfortable.. But then again, at least now he knows that I AM actually in a relationship and that I'm NOT lying or making up the fact that I DO have a boyfriend.

But now he's probably "cut" deeper and his wounds would be harder to heal. Coz that's what he [H] said, when he texted me last night.

I just hope that he will be all good and will recover soon. Coz I do know that H is a good person, good friend. Just maybe not my type of "boyfriend material".

Meeting the Parents

YAY! My boyfriend has FINALLY met my parents last night! And he had a "pleasant" chat with my father. Haha. And I'm so glad that my parents weren't like, "upset" or "angry" that he was at home with me. I thought that my mom would get more upset, coz she doesn't like visitors as she thinks she doesn't "look" good and all. But really, she's fine. That's why I was glad that she didn't seem to upset.

But apparently my older went all psycho and upset. According to my mom and yougner sister, she was jealous.... Like ooohhh...

And yeah, my parents don't know that me and K are going out yet :D But they will soon enough :)

I just love him more and more by the day. And he got realy jealous when he FINALLY found out what and how R actually acts around me. All touchy-touchy and molest-y kind of way. He said he would go and have a word with him today.... Hehehe. I love him so much! xD

It's Official!!

Oh my gosh! It's official guys!! Me and K are FINALLY a couple!! xD EEK! I am sooo happy and at the same time I cannot believe this and contain my pure excitement/happiness! Haha. He asked me yesterday, when he came to pick me up after work @Valleygirl! I'm so happy! I'm FINALLY in a PROPER relationship! YAYYY!! Hahhahaha!

He bought me some [light] pink flowers and 6 chocolate hearts from "The Chocolate Lounge". I felt so happy about that! And it took him SOOOO long to actually get the question out of him! He was so shy. We were in the car when he asked me. But he eventually did. And I said YES of course! xD

Now I think I am the happiest girl alive! I can't believe this day FINALLY came! You don't know how much I have been waiting for this day!! EEEK!! Now I know that K will always be mine and I won't be scared that he will be taken away from me!! And that I can now say, "Yes. He is my boyfriend" or "Yes. I'm taken" in a very proud way. And as well as, being able to hug and hold hands in public without feeling like we're not in a proper relationship and then having people ask if he is my boyfriend.