Patching Things Up

I texted G this morning to tell him that I would (finally) return his hooded jacket back to him. The conversation went like this: 

Q: Hey. You have free from 10 a.m.  - 11 a.m. aye

G: If u mean time. Yeah. I am free from 10 - 11. who is this

Q: Sweet. I'll give you back your jacket then. And once again. Thanks for deleting my number.

G: Oh you again. Well you don't talk to me. And you mad at me so I don't see a point in keeping your number.

Q: Oh. "Again." I'm sorry then. I do talk to you. And plus. Even if I am mad at you, you didn't have to delete my number. Do u see me deleting your number when you were mad at me??!

G: No. Q. I didn't say it that way. Plus, Q you don't know how terrible I feel. It's not that I don't wanna talk to you or hate you or anything. Every time I see your number I wanna talk to you. And stuff. And I know if I do that. You won't be interested in being friends again. So I thought it would help if I deleted it. Nothing negative.

Q: Every time you talk to me on MSN and stuff, I always reply. So why would I not text back if u texted me? I never said I didn't want to be friends with you anymore. You know how i hate losing a friend.

G: Yeah and when I ask you if you are still mat at me. You say it doesn't matter. And to me that means that nothing will change between us. And I don't want it to be like that.

Q: Yes. Coz it really doesn't. If I was mad at you, what will you do? If I wasn't mad at you, what will u do?

G: If you were mad I would stop talking to you. And if you weren't I would be friendly. That's what I had planned anyway.

Q: Oh. So if I was mad at you, you wouldn't talk to to me? How is that gonna make our friendship any better?

G: It's not. If your mad at me. Then why bother. But if your not. It's worth a try.

Q: Well if you bothered. It could at least still help the friendship somehow. If u don't. Obviously it's all gonna go down the drain, isn't it?

G: Yea. Well do you wanna still be mates

Q: Yes I do. Do you?

G: I do.

So yeah. That's how the conversation went. I told him that I'll meet up with him to give him back his jacket anyways, seeing as I have already bought it along with me and have finally remembered to. He told me: 'Nah actually. Keep it at your place. If it wasn't  for my jacket. It's actually a hoodie. We wouldn't be talking.'

But in the end, I gave it back to him. Coz i didn't want to carry it around in my bag. It's pretty big actually. Takes up a lot of room in my bag. So yeah. I guess now we are on good terms. But this certainly does not mean that I have forgiven him (yet) for what he has said to me. He said that he 'feels terrible' but he never said a thing about him being sorry or being regretful for what he had said to me. 

I don't know if I will point that out to him, but.. for now. I think I will just pretend that nothing is happening, now that we are starting to patch up our friendship again. Maybe, I will tell him later, when I have finally decided that I am going to forgive him. But surely. I will never forget it.