No one Understands...

On Tuesday, I decided to tell J what happened - mainly coz he kept asking me. And I had ask him the night before (Monday), on MSN, whether I was a two-faced person or not. He automatically replied that everyone was. I told him that was not the answer I wanted. I explained to him what I meant. He then told me. You could say, most of it was the stuff sort of similar to the things that G had told me. My two-faced-ness was mainly directed/related to guys. It wasn't very nice to hear. But I had told J to be honest with me, seeing as he is my closest guy friend. But in a way, I didn't think he understood how I felt...

So on Tuesday, after our class together, he asked me about G. It took me a while to tell him, but I eventually did. We both agreed and knew what type of person G was. We had a good talk about him. Though it wasn't a very long talk and we didn't exactly get to finish, it was till worthwhile, seeing as I wagged my other class to talk to J about this. We both knew that he was VERY desperate for a girlfriend. And would try anything to get one. But the thing was, he likes asians girls. Not that it's a bad thing. It's just that he's a black guy.. and mainly.. he has anger issues. Any chick would run away from him sooner or later (no offense or anything to him). But it's the truth.

He's even lied to two asian girls (whom I know), telling them that, they were the first asian girl that he has liked. Which we all know, is a big, fat LIE. That's how desperate he can get. G turned up at about 4.30 p.m. and so me and J couldn't talk about him no more. It was sort of weird, the atmosphere. For me, it was more like awkward and I-don't-want-to-talk-to-you atmosphere (for me). But anyways, he and J talked and I just sat there. I didn't want to talk to him really. 

- Different story -

Last Saturday, G and I were texting at night. He told me that he had 'lost someone that I loved and it hurt a lot. There are times where I lay in bed and cried.' I sort of felt sorry for him, but I wasn't so sure about the crying part.. But anyways, I asked him who it was and it took him about 5 minutes to tell me, that it was ME!! OMG! (Well, actually, I knew that was coming, but I never knew that he LOVED me. What the hell?!). After all his explanations and I had already told him that I'm still recovering from all those things that he had said to me. He said, 'I'm guessing you still mad at me. Q let it go. It happened and there is nothing you can do 

to change the past. Why don't you move on? In a good way that is.' I mean, what the hell was he thinking?! Telling me to move on. Coz it ain't HIM that has been hurt. Coz it ain't HIM that has to think about those nasty words everyday! Coz HE'S the one that said those hurtful words and NEVER regretted it!!

Gosh. I don't know how he can do that!! I'm so pissed at him right now. I don't want to talk to him on MSN and text I have decided. Coz even J agrees with me that, when G texts, there are no emotions in them and so it's harder for me to know whether he is joking, serious or angry or whatever.