I'm just really confused at the moment. I mean I like him, but then I have doubts about him. (Not bad doubts of course). The person I'm talking about is K.
He recently came down to PN. I haven't seen him in like 2 - 3 months. I miss him so much. And now that he is here, I'm wondering whether it is real that I like him more than a friend or not.
I remember the first time that I met him. To me, he was like a person that was scary and didn't like to talk perhaps. Coz when I first meet him through my friends Y and T for lunch, he didn't talk much and looked sort of cold to me.
When Y gave him my number coz she said that he was a bit dodgy and all, and didn't want him to text her, she gave him my number so he'd text me and not her. I was freaked. Coz I didn't know him, and from what she told me, it was sorta of freaky. Considering he was older than us and all.
But when he started teething me, he didn't seem that dodgy at all. But like the slightest thing he'd say to me, I'd feel like "Oh my gosh! dodgy!!" Like I remember when he first texted me saying that his (cellphone) number was similar to mine, I got freaked and was like 'Oh my god. Ew." But if you think about it, he probably didn't mean it that way (dodgy way).
Every time that he texted me, I would be like 'Oh god. It's him again.' And I would never remember him until he texted me. He would never really tell me much about him, whenever I asked questions about him. He seemed like such a mysterious person to me. So I never really knew that much about him.
But just until recently... Or should I say, since about half a year ago, I suddenly remember him all the time, and want to have him texting me.
Throughout the end of last year, we talked a lot (through text and a few phone calls from him) and hung out with him when he was on his usual monthly visits to PN. It was always great to see him and every time we hang out, was always a great memory, in some sort of way. And even on Christmas we sent each other presents and also for his birthday in February, I got him a present from Hong Kong when I went in January. He said he loved it. And of course, I was happy about that =)
Now that we are getting closer, and he has sort of opened up to me. Like I know some things about him. I've met his parents, I know that he has an older sister who's married and is living in Auckland, I know where is house is and I guess I know some other minor stuff. But seriously, he's not as bad as people said he was. That he's a creepy/dodgy old perverted man.
So right now, I'm glad that I trusted my own gut, and I'm glad that I'm not the type of person who, listens to what tother people say and take their word for it without considering, whether it's true or not, or giving that person a chance and getting to know that person instead. I'm soo glad I got to know K instead of just straight up ignoring him like Y would.
So now the question is, do I like K or do I just find him 'new', considering the fact that I hardly see and talk to him? I miss him and I always want to see him (whenever he is in PN) and want to talk or be texting him.
Lust or Love guys???
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