Thursday, April 29, 2010

Nothing..

Well, he didn't text me yesterday... so I wonder why. But then again, that doesn't really matter, right?

He keeps writing in his blog, saying how he hopes/wishes for me to forgive him. He had this entry about how this song relates to how he feels right now. Something about how, if planes were like shooting stars. Then he'd be able to make a wish each time a plane went past.

And like, oh my God, he ACTUALLY said he was hoping on waiting for a plane to fly past that night. I was like oh my God, are you freaking serious?? O___o

But yeah, I can't believe he actually wants to believe that.

Yes, yes. I know that maybe it is a little bit that is my fault. But you know what? I've pretty much forgotten all the reasons that I'm supposedly "angry" at him for. The only thing that really stands out in my head is that, he blocked me from MSN and that he said that he'll find me "if and when he's ready".

So if he wants to talk to me, he can wait till IF and WHEN he's ready! Stupid idiot! Who does he think he is??

Said that he spent a lot of time growing up alone. So what?? Doesn't mean that the whole world revolves around YOU!! Gosh. What are you trying to imply?? That you're spoilt little "rich" kid and want others to treat you the way your parents treat you?? NA! I don't think so!

Welcome to the REAL world!!

I mean yes, friends DO use each other. But there is a limit to the extent of/for "using"* for friends. I mean, you even use family (members), but it's all up to the amount of "use" that you are "using" them.

He should just over it really.

So, I'm not "angry" at him no more really, though when it comes to talking about this, I get all worked up again! >:(

The real problem right now (for me) is that, now that he has made the situation all awkward, I don't feel like talking to him. Like everything has changed. I don't know how to "act normal" anymore in front of him. Don't know how to be "how we were" before all this stuff happened.

Man, I don't want to lose him as a friend. But I just can't face him right now. Don't even feel like saying hi to him, even if he just walked right past me. *Sigh*

Don't know whether to blame him for all this, or to blame myself for not being able to 'pretend' that nothing has happened and just get over it...



*If you're wondering why I've put USING, USE etc in " ", it's because I think those words (use and using etc) are very harsh and I don't like to think of us people as of using each other. If you know what I mean...

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