Mixed Feelings

So, I've had this inside me for a very long time.. You know, R and I have gotten close lately. Considering I go to his place like everyday during the Semester, coz my parents doesn't know that I don't have class and I don't want them to know, coz I don't want them to keep nagging me about slacking and all. So I decided going to his place to go on Facebook and watching dramas was the best option.

So we like see each other everyday, and I sorta got sick of him by the time Semester break arrived (which is now). But like, now that it is our holiday, I don't see him as often (which I think is a good thing, so we don't get TOO close), like I miss him and all. When I finally get t see him, I feel happy and all. But once I see him so many times a week, I get so sick of seeing him.

He makes me smiles deep down and all. But like.. somehow, there is SOMETHING that seems to stop me every time. Like I suddenly decide maybe he's good for me, and I should go out with him and all. And then the next thing I know is that I don't want to, because there might be some other guy whose better for me or whatever.

Man, I'm so confused. Maybe I like him, but not enough. I THINK I have a feeling that he likes me, so I have to do my best to try and NOT lead him on too much. I don't want to break his heart.

So the question is, do I really want to be with him, or am I just highly confused about what I REALLY want??