Hmm.. I don't know. This is just another random entry, where I just casually enter my little thoughts into, I guess.... :o
So I just wanted to say that, although my boyfriend loves me and cares for me a lot. But I just feel that he's not as romantic as I thought he would be. And yes. I have already told him [my boyfriend] this. I mean, I'm not asking for him to do anything like, totally out of it. Like, setting up a mini surprise party or like, drive me to some sort of "romantic" destination or buying me a frekain' $1 million ring/jewelery.
All I want is for him to, sweet talk me a little, do little things for me -without me knowing, and I find out later (although he has done something like that already), buying something that I say that I really, really, really, REALLY like/love, but am too poor to afford it :( BUT! I know he's not rich himself, but spoiling me a little, like once every 6 months or more is fine :O
Maybe I'm losing track of what I really want to say, now that I'm typing it all out... :s Hmm.. Maybe... I mean, I'm sorry, but this time I have to compare him with R -again. Sorry Honey x(
I know i shouldn't be comparing my boyfriend to my guys best friend -who likes me more than a friend. But like, in a way, I think R is more romantic in his on little way. His way is like, quirky with a touch of romantic-ness. And the thing is, he spends time on something that he gifts to his "special someone" and just like, he puts in the time and effort. Regardless of the money he has to spend on it. BUT! I'm not saying that my boyfriend is a cheap ass and cares a lot about money. But I'm just saying, he [my boyfriend] could perhaps spend a little more time in giving me those special gifts.
And and! Like, sometimes, with the thiings he says [K] isn't as touching as R's words. But, deep down, I know that I love him [K] a lot, and I know that he is the one that I wanna be with. No one else. I definitely don't see a future in me and R. Even if his words are so sweet and touching. Always putting me ahead of any other girls he knows -whether it's true or not. I don't know. Cos I don't know if he says the say things to his other female friends. And he does a lot of things for me.
I definitely love K a lot and don't intend on leaving him. Cos he is the perfect -well near perfect boyfriend. He loves me, cares a lot about me, puts me in first place, buys me any thing that I ask for -directly, and just loves me as a whole. There's a lot more. But it'll probably be boring, reading the whole list.
Hmmm.... Well I guess I can't change my boyfriend's, personality and attitude. I know he's a romantic person deep down, and he says he is, but he is scared that he'd make a wrong move [in-person -not text] and then he'd regret it. So yeah. I dunno. I mean, even if it happened to be a "wrong" move, I mean, at least I still know he made the effort, right? All I know is that I love him soo much! And no one can EVER replace him :)
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