Phone Call

Tonight, he called me @ 9.13pm. Oh man. Was I surprised with that phone call from him or what? Coz he doesn't usually call me. But yeah, he called to ask if I was upset. Coz he thought that I was. But really, I wasn't. He thought that I was upset coz it started off like this...

He randomly bought up the fact that me and R would make a good couple and all [via text]. And that we'd make the perfect couple. Blah blah blah. And I don't like it when he does that, coz you know, I like him and it seems like he is wanting to push me over to him or something. He was like, R wants you not me. I was like, "Oh I see. So you're the one that doesn't want me. I understand now." Then he was like, "Haha. And how do you know that I don't want you? Or it could be the other way around. Maybe you don't want me." I was like, I never said that. He then was like, "I say R wants you. And I didn't finish the text. At the end. K wants Q too. With your reply, sounds like you don't want me?" I was like, I never said that. And he replied with, "I say that to see how much you care about me. If that makes you unhappy then I stop... Sorry." After reading that I was like, aww. That's so sad that he thinks like that :( I told him that I was fine. And he said, "Are you getting upset? Well when a sick person with no one care. He begin to think this world is nothing, not worth of living. And this is what happened today. I went for a long drive hoping to see the things that I have missed." Then I was asked him how the drive was.

A few seconds later, I got a call. And it was him. I was damn surprised! He asked if I was upset and I was like, no. I told you I wasn't. And he was like, Oh OK. Just checking. I was like *smile*

We talked for1 hour and 34 minutes [43 seconds] :D hehe. Man I sound so obsessive xD But hey! it was such a good conversation!! After we hung up, it just felt like we had just seen each other. Was so good to hear his voice again. So nice. I really want to see him again now! And I thought that maybe my feelings weren't that strong for him anymore... So it IS the fact that we don't "communicate" enough. I want to see him soo bad now! Why did he call me?! Now I'm back to my old self [2-3 weeks ago] feeling all hung up over him x( But then again, that's a good thing. Coz I don't want to be thinking about anyone else but him! Hehehe!

Then later on [after the phone call] he texted me saying that, "I'm so glad I know you. And knowing you is the best thing happen so far." I was like, "Aww! You're so sweet!" And he was like, "No. You are a lot sweeter. I can taste it. Hahaha!" It went on and on with us arguing over, who's sweeter and all. Then I had to go to sleep, coz I have work the next day. And he said his usual good night's and sweet dream's and at the end of the text, he added, "Love you always" I was like *huge smile*

Oh he is just the BEST!! I heart him so much! I'm sort of like counting down the days till it's August.. Haha. Obsessed alright! xD I don't know the exact date that he is coming down next month. But I'm waiting!! And can't wait till that day comes!!

And I downloaded the song, by Diddy feat. T.I. - Hello Good Morning. This song reminds me of K. Coz I got this song off him. And it's a good song! :D It doesn't describe us or anything. It's just a song that reminds me of him :D

Sad Thoughts

My poor K is thinking ever so negatively *frown* He's sick [ill] but it doesn't mean he is going to die. I mean, if he died, what am I gonna do?! I'd be in mourning for the rest of my life! :'( I don't want him to die! Coz he keeps saying that if he is going to die, he'd still watch me from above and help me find a guy that will care for me and all. I don't want any other guy except for him!!

I wish that he was here. Last night he said that he didn't think that he was a sweet guy. I asked him why and what he thought of himself. He said that he wasn't a good guy. And that there is a lot of bad things about him (something along those lines). And said, I'd probably stop talking to him after he has told me. I was like, aw no I won't. I don't judge people on what they did or what's bad about them. And I wouldn't mind, coz he's being honest with me and that the fact that I like him, so I have accepted him for who he is.

Unless he really do something bad like, cheating on his ex or a girl. Then... I'd most likely to have doubts about going out with him... But I sure hope that's not it!!!! I told him to tell me -if he wants to that is. And then he said, I'll tell you when I come back and after you tell me what you think of me. I was like, "WHAT!!! Now you're making me wait for an answer too aye?" Haha. But now I totally cannot wait till he's back. I want to know everything about him! And I want to tell him, myself, how I feel about him too... HEE! I'm all excited now xD

But for the meantime, I'll sit here and wait for him. And I hope he gets well soon.

Trust

I can't believe it. K gave me his username and password to his FB account! :O It's surprising to me coz I never thought he would. Coz he didn't seem the type to give out his personal details. Well maybe he gave it out to me coz he likes me? But then I asked him, 'Do you really trust me that much?' And he replies with, "Yes." I was like wow. Talk about trust! I mean, even I don't give out my password, to anyone! Let alone be the person I like! Haha!

Wow. I'm just so amazed. But like, I don't think I really need it. I just asked for it, for fun really. But yeah... Wow.

Anyways. All I know is that he truly likes me. And that I am the only one that he thinks about. Exactly how I feel about him. He's the only guy I think about 24/7. But aww!! He's sick!! :( That's so sad. I hope he gets well soon! And get well before he comes back to PN! Haha.

He said that he's looking for a watch too. Coz recently, I saw one at Stewart Dawson's [Jewellers] and they are having a watch sale. And the (perfect) one I like/LOVE is like $215.40!! Man! That's soo expensive!! And he said that when he comes down we could look for one together and get a couple watch. And I was like *HUGE GRIN* and said SURE! :D Oh that would be marvellous if we DID get a couple's watch!! xD haha Oh I'm dreaming.. But I SURE hope that does come true! haha

Wishing You Were Here

AWWWWWWWWWWW!!! As each day passes, and as we text each other, pretty much everyday, I miss him more and more by the day... And the more I want to see him and the more I want to be in his arms... I miss him so much.

Waiting for someone is really hard... That's another reason why I dislike long-distance relationships... And the hardest thing of all is, trying to act like his friend until the day he asks me to be his girlfriend... *Sigh* Indeed it's hard... I want to just burst out and tell him, how much I miss him and want to see him . And how I think about him everyday and night and how I wish he was here with me, right now.

And another thing that he changed about me is, the way that I think about long-distance relationships. Coz, before, I was highly opposed to long-distance relationships. Coz I refused to believe that they would work and that either one of the couples would cheat on one or the other. So.. I didn't want to be in that position. And I guess, knowing K, I trust him not to flirt or cheat on me with other girls. I trust him. He made me realize, if you loved someone enough, no matter what, you will trust them and not make you feel uncomfortable or uneasy when the two [couples] aren't together. I thank him for changing me this way :)

He told me last night that he might be getting sick. And I was like, aww. Don't get sick :( I want to see him all healthy (the next time I see him) not sick and unwell. I told him that he should have a good night's sleep tonight and that he should eat well. He replied saying, "I cannot sleep well. Cannot eat well with out you here with me." I was like, aww! He's just so sweet and adorable. I sooo wanted to hug him right then! Why does he have to live so far away from me...? I want to see him soo bad!

I miss him very much. I guess that is all I have to say right now.

Oh yeah. Next Wednesday is my last day @ McDonald's. I'm going to miss everyone soo much :( the only place with guys.. and you know me.. I'm not very good at socializing with girls... So.. That's why I will miss McDonald's so much. But then again, yay for Valleygirl. Coz the girls there are soo much friendlier and nicer than the girls @ Rubi Shoes. Haha.

Day and Night

I think about him day and night. I just can't seem to get him out of my mind...

My mom asked me last night, whether I had a boyfriend or not, coz of the fact that I have been sooo happy the past few weeks. (Pretty much ever since I got back from Auckland -according to her). And the fact that my younger sister told her that I had been "playing" with the "me to you" bear that K got me. It's so cute! And soft and fluffy! I love it! xD So yeah, that's what makes my mom thinks that I have a boyfriend.

Coz apparently, when a girl in "in love", they are extremely happy and overjoyed and nothing matters to them. So that's what my mom thinks. And of course she is right, though I don't have a boyfriend -YET! But, there IS that someone special on my mind all the time :D But I cannot tell her yet. Coz for a start, we aren't going out yet and I don't really like gushing all my lovey-dovey feelings to other people.

I soo can't wait until next month! Now I realized how hard it is to wait for someone this bad and that a long-distance relationship IS really hard! ><

He told me that we are 'two people sharing one heart' which is what makes us closer to each other than anyone else. I was like, aww! And last night [via text] I told him that, I always remember that night, where we just hugged each other for ages and didn't want to let go. He said that was all he remembered too and that, that memory is in his heart forever. I was like, aww. Me too! He totally makes me smile.

He likes to think that we are going to get married, and yet, we aren't even going out yet. Haha! But I wouldn't mind marrying him. He's such a great guy. So romantic and loving. But the again, I gotta see if he IS the man that I want to be with forever and ever. But right now, he is the one I want to be with forever and ever. But things change, and people change. So.. We'll see if that's what I think later on in life.

But right now! Let's not think about that. And just think about, how much of a cutie he is. How sweet and adorable he can be. He always manage to put a BIG smile back on my face whether I'm sad or not :)

I heart him soo much.

HAPPY!

He makes me so happy! We talked about we should cook for each other and that he is going to teach me how to cook, coz he knows that I don't know how to cook (haha!) and that I would make him coffee!! Man, talking/texting with him is soo much fun! I love him so much! Well.. we'll stick with "like" him so much for now.. Coz we can't love each other already and we don't go out yet, right?

And he was like asking me, did I think he was gay or not. And i said definitely not! He asked me how can I be 100% so sure? I was like, coz you don't seem the type. Then he goes, I could be gay on the inside. I was like, yeah right! Don't lie to me!! And then he was like, "Just joking. At least I know myself is not gay. Becasue I like a girl. And that girl is named, Q." I was like AWW! you are soo sweet and adorable! I soo wanted him to hug him then!!!

Oh I miss him so much. *Sigh* I have to wait for a WHOOOLLE month for him. Poor me. :( I miss him. And I can't wait to see him!!!!

Suddenly

Suddenly I feel so sad. After last night's texting-time with K. I don't know why.. But I feel.. unhappy in a way... What's killing me?

I think it may be the dream that I had lat night? Or was it the night before? Like, I dreamt that I was holding hand with ANOTHER guy and at the same time, I was thinking about K. I don't know why... But like I felt so bad. Even when I woke up, I felt so bad, I kept thinking about it. It felt like I had cheated on K already, even before we are together. Oh this is so bad.

But at least, now I know, I truely like K, and K only. No one else. And I would NEVER intend or think about cheating on him with another guy OR think about another guy like the way I do to him.

I also dreamt that he was going to com back in September!! Man! I was like NOOO! And refused to listen to the rest of it (on my dream). But then he texted me this afternoon saying that he will come back next month. I was soo relieved.

Aww! I miss him so much. I want him to come back now :(