Sad Thoughts

My poor K is thinking ever so negatively *frown* He's sick [ill] but it doesn't mean he is going to die. I mean, if he died, what am I gonna do?! I'd be in mourning for the rest of my life! :'( I don't want him to die! Coz he keeps saying that if he is going to die, he'd still watch me from above and help me find a guy that will care for me and all. I don't want any other guy except for him!!

I wish that he was here. Last night he said that he didn't think that he was a sweet guy. I asked him why and what he thought of himself. He said that he wasn't a good guy. And that there is a lot of bad things about him (something along those lines). And said, I'd probably stop talking to him after he has told me. I was like, aw no I won't. I don't judge people on what they did or what's bad about them. And I wouldn't mind, coz he's being honest with me and that the fact that I like him, so I have accepted him for who he is.

Unless he really do something bad like, cheating on his ex or a girl. Then... I'd most likely to have doubts about going out with him... But I sure hope that's not it!!!! I told him to tell me -if he wants to that is. And then he said, I'll tell you when I come back and after you tell me what you think of me. I was like, "WHAT!!! Now you're making me wait for an answer too aye?" Haha. But now I totally cannot wait till he's back. I want to know everything about him! And I want to tell him, myself, how I feel about him too... HEE! I'm all excited now xD

But for the meantime, I'll sit here and wait for him. And I hope he gets well soon.