Fight Over the Phone

Last night. after work @Valleygirl, about 10pm K called me just before he slept as he had work at 4am the next day. During his call, around 11.10pm, we sort of had this "fight". So it goes like this:


We started talking about the day we met each other and how we felt towards each other before we went out and when we were just friends. And then he said something like, that he decided to go for me, when he realized or found out that some other guy had no hope of being with me. Like, saying that I had no interest in him [that other guy]. And then I was like, "OHH. So who is this other guy??! What guy?!" He then said that it was a secret and it was just between him and his "man stuff" or whatever. I kept asking him to tell me who it was that gave him that "hope" to go for it. Or like consider me as his girlfriend and all. But he kept saying he wont' tell me.


He was texting during our conversation, I didn't mind it. But then like 5 seconds after me asking him to tell me, he decides that he has forgotten what we were talking about. I mean what the hell?? How can you forget something that we happen to just be talking about in like 5 seconds?! And the fact that we hadn't even changed topics!?! He kept saying that I should remind him on what we were talking about and that I should ask him the question or what I had wanted to know, or else he will seriously forget all about it the next day. I was like, Oh my f*&^ing God! You gotta be kidding me! Somehow, I was very annoyed with him.. I guess it was mainly for forgetting and texting instead of listening to me.


He kept asking me what it was that I wanted to know, and I was like, you know what I want to know. He kept saying that he can't remember what we were talking about. Then it went on and he said in Cantonese, that I was very "stubborn". I was like meh [in my head].


But then he used his serious tone and said something like, "If you want to know something, just ask. Otherwise i don't know what to tell you. And I will forget the next day." Or something along those lines. I was like, "MEH! Whatever. I don't want to know anymore." And that was the point where I really got all grumpy and was like whatever, go to sleep. Then he said OK. And he was about to say something, but I sort of cut in saying "bye" but like, I didn't know he was going to say something. I thought he was going to say 'bye' so I was like bye. So then he didn't even carry on with his sentence [whatever he was going to say] and said "bye" and then hung up. I was like :O so shocked! He hung up on me just like that!


I was soo annoyed for the whole night. Then I decided to get R to call me up so I can somewhat, forget about this problem and relax, talk about this H situtation and all. But R didn't get my [FB] message until later on.


Before this whole 'argument' he had told me to text him when I got home and was going to sleep [as I was at R's coz it was late and needed a ride home from my sister]. I was like OK. So then, after the argument. I was thinking, whether or not I should text him. So I ended up texting him at 12.25am, saying, "I'm home now. Bedtime. Good night. Enjoy work." I don't know. Like, did that sound a bit harsh or ... "hearltess"??


But for the whole night, I felt so.. Unhappy?/annoyed? Yet "regretful". Why? Coz somehow, I felt so childish. For like, not repeating the question. Acting immature and like suddenly get all grumpy on him. But it's not my fault... [Is it?] I mean, whenever he goes all serious-tone/talk on me, all my mood suddenly disappears. It's like ARRGH! Kills the mood entirely. Also, I felt that, I shouldn't be so hard on him, since it was getting late and he should be getting his good night's sleep, since he had work early in the morning tomorrow. Yet, I was being an immature little girl....


Feeling annoyed was mainly him forgetting what I/we were talking about. I feel so bad, yet annoyed... I have been thinking all of last night, whether I should reply his FB messages that we always send to each other when he's not in PN, and whether or not I should text him the next day after he texts he back from the message that I sent him last night. But in the end, I didn't text him back... And he had apologized over text, telling me to forgive him. And even now, I haven't replied... I don't know why... I just somehow.. Don't feel like talking to him..


Like, I miss him. Yes. And this is the first time that we have had a fight over the phone, where we are not able to see each other like the previous times where we had our "fights/arguments". So yeah.. Don't know. I think we're both wrong. But me mainly.. Coz I've been so childish.. I think I should apologize... Soon.... He's getting very worried about me and all...


I'm sorry Honey....