Work - Again

Oh deary me. Seems like I haven't had much luck at work latey..

Did this major complex and out-of-it problem at on Wednesday. All of us [managers + me] we like what the hell did I [Q] do?? O___o it was SUCH a hassle! I felt soo bad doing it!!

And then TODAY! I made another mistake. I UNDER-CHARGED a customer $20. Oh sigh... And they haven't found out it was me -yet! But they will soon. They know that there is a post-difference of $20. But not sure who done it. And soon, they will know it's me. I somewhat feel scared. Coz i hate getting into trouble and when I make mistakes, I feel so down -like it's the end of the world or something. And yet, I make so many mistakes. I think this is the third mistake that I have made during my [about] 4 months of employment @Valleygirl :( And man. It hasn't even been 6 months and I have done THREE mistakes on the till already :( Man I suck.

Don't know WHY I did that. But I did. Maybe it's from the stress/pressure of the strict as store policies and the fact that I know that we are being watched [constantly] through the cameras at the head office [in Auckland and Australia], and that makes me soo nervous!! And probably the fact that I have exams, and I'm stressing out a bit.... Yeah... I just need to chill.... And CALM DOWN.....

I have only told K. He did his best in comforting me. And I thank him for that. Being there for me when I most need it. He's certainly improving from when we were dating at first :)

So yeah. I will DEFINITELY HAVE TO:
1. SLOW DOWN - DON'T RUSH!! TAKE MY TIME!! LIKE SERIOUSLY
2. READ/LOOK CAREFULLY AT THE PRICE
and
3. DOUBLE CHECK!!!!

whenever I am working at the counter. Or I'm going to be SCREWED -AGAIN! And I really don't want to be having another "talk" with my mangers :( esp P [SSM] coz she always has my back and looks out for me. I don't want to cause any more trouble for her coz of me :( And I know that L [SM] has my back too. But I know she wouldn't be too impressed knowing that I continue to make more mistakes x(

Hopefully I won't make another mistake, any time soon!!! xO