His Email

So he [H] actually emailed me last night instead of texting me or FB-ing me. I only got to read a bit of it. Coz I had just finished work @Valleygirl and it was like nearly 10pm by the time I got out. So Obviously, as usual, I went ofer to R's place and waited for my mom and sister to come and pick me up.

When I actually remembered to sign into hotmail, after FB-ing, I saw that there was an email from him. So I clicked it open. And man, it was ONE, LONG AS email. I only managed to read like 1/4 of that message. And then my sister and mom had arrived.

So when I got home, was on the phone with K. and in a way, I wanted to ask him about his ex-girlfriend, then in another way... I sort of didn't want to. But it was too late, I had already started it. I had asked him, "Can I ask you a question?" It WAS supposedly, suppose to be about his ex-girlfriend.... But I knew he wouldn't be overly impressed with the fact that I had brought it up again... So I ended up telling him about H's email to me. Telling him to open it and read it to me.

It was too long, so K decided to pretty much summarize it. And it went something like, how H thinks that I'm inconsiderate as a friend, not caring about his feelings, and all that stuff. Coz while I was happily shopping, he was most likely, bored, and like 'left out', maybe? And saying that I didn't care about him and that he had walked around The Plaza like a billion times, up and down. And yeah. Stuff like that.

K said that he will delete that email and send it to him [K] and then send it back to me, AFTER my exams. Coz he didn't want, what he [H] said about me, to effect my mood and my study mode.

In a way, I felt real.. upset after reading -or rather, hearing that. Coz he [H] said that I didn't care about the people around me and at the same time, K said the same thing about me too... So.. It just got to me. And I ended up having a little cry... I guess it was the fact that "reality kicked in".

Maybe I am inconsiderate and selfish. Maybe I am the person who doesn't care about the people that are around me... I even asked k that, but he said not selfish, coz what I did, was totally normal [reaction]. But with caring about the people around me, he said sometimes I don't care about them. Like, I'm off in my own little world, and forget that they are there.

I asked R if that "shopper" was inconsiderate and selfish. And he said no.

I mean, yeah, I admit, I do get carried away when it comes to shopping. Coz in a way, it's like soo exciting and I like want to get it over and done with. You know?

Well.. K won't allow me to reply to the email or read it yet. He said I will be able to reply it after my exams. And he also said that H is not worth it. He's not a keeper [friend]. Just lose him as a friend. Coz he doesn't respect me and that he expects too much from me. Like, all the care and stuff. And asking me to tell him where I am and all. He [K] said that's too much from friend status. The way he's asking you to care for him, is more like a boyfriend-girlfirend kind of way, rather than a friend kind of way. I was like hmm...

SO! Right now! I jus really need to focus, focus, focus! On my studies!! More exams next week!! Arrrrghhh!