Can't Let Go

I have realized that letting him go, is harder than I thought it would be [at first]. Although sometimes I gotta admit, it certainly IS painful to be waiting for him constantly for days, weeks and months. But I know, deep down, I love this guy very much and letting him go, is not an option.

I told him on the phone that I feel like I'm "suffering" and it's painful that I have to wait sooo long just to see him -and I'm not saying that he's not waiting to see me or anything. But it's like, why does my first relationship HAVE to be a long-distance relationship?! Maybe this is one of the things that I have too "sacrifice", considering how "perfect" my first love is.

When I told him all this [suffering and painful], he felt very sad, and asked if I wanted to leave him, and of course I said NO! I mean, yeah, I know it would hurt him to hear me say such thing. But I just wanted to get it off my chest. Waiting for someone you truly love, is damn HARD and PAINFUL!

I don't ever want to leave him. He's perfect in every way. I can't wait till the day that I get to move in with him :) Yeah... I think this is what they call "falling in love" eh? I love him so much, that no one in this world could EVER replace him :)