No Call

He didn't call me last night as he was busy with work. Somewhat, I felt really lost and lonely. Like, we [me and K] were on the verge of breaking up or something!

All these negative thoughts were coming to me. I don't know why. All the lovely memories that we have had together were rushing to my mind, and I just ended up crying a bit. I kept thinking, 'what would happen when we break up?' Which just caused me to be even more upset.

I don't know why I was so upset over it and it's not the first time that he hasn't called me just before I/we slept. I guess I just missed him a lot. He felt that I was unhappy, but I just said a little. I really did miss him and wanted to hear his voice.

I guess this is what you call "falling in love"? Maybe? Coz just thinking about breaking up, makes me so upset. But then, sometimes, when I do think about you know, leaving this world and that there is nothing to live for, I don't mind 'breaking up' with him like that. But when I re-think, I know deep down, I love him a lot. More than I have for any other guy...