W wanted me to go out clubbing with him [and his mates] last night. And my mom wouldn't let me. Coz my dad would go mental if he knew that I was going out that late and coming home late as well. Coz he thinks that I have class tomorrow. And really, I don't. I just have work @ 2pm. But you know, we don't like being questioned. So it's best not to tell him. Before I told him [W] that I would go. But after asking mom, I had to tell him, Sorry, no. Maybe in the weekends. I felt so bad though he said it was all good and to not worry about it.
Mom said I had to come home before 2am. And you know, W and his mates are like pretty much party-goers and don't go home till like 3-4am. So yeah. And then I told K that I might me going out and he said, if I told you not to stay out too late. And come home before 2am. Would you listen to me? And I was like "OMG! Both you and my mom are telling me the same thing!! Haha."
He said that he honestly preferred it if I don't go out at all [at night of course]. And I was like ass, But I hardly go out at night anyways... Just like once in a lifetime really.. But yeah. I could sense that he really didn't want me to go. And today, he texted me asking me, whether I was going to go out on Saturday night with them [Taiwanese people] and I was like, na. Don't feel like it. He was then like, if what I said last night got to you [affected me] then I'm sorry. I was like, don't worry. It's got nothing to do with what you said to me.
But like, I could feel that he worried about me a lot. He kept asking me whether I'm going to go out and to tell him if I changed my mind about going out.
I think in a way, I MAY have "offended" W, coz I said I'd go, but then like, pretty much the last minute, I said I wasn't going anymore. I felt bad. But... It seems like he took it the hard way and I guess he got a bit annoyed at me(?) I don't know aye.
So with that, I found out, if he really was a friend, he would've accepted or what they say, "respected" my thoughts/requests etc. Instead of just sort of giving me off this vibe of, "Eff you" kind of vibe, you know?
And with K, though it could be due to the fact that he is older and [possibly] more mature, he cares for me and like, sort of... Would be the type to respect my parents and like... Think about them in my place. You know what I mean?
With that, I have realized, though yes, W is better looking, nice, taller and all, doesn't mean he is the right guy for me. I mean, he is still young [like a year older than me] and still likes to go out a lot with his friends [drinking and clubbing etc] and obviously, I am not the type to do so. Mainly coz of my parents "curfew" but otherwise, I think I would be exactly like them, partying, clubbing and drinking every weekend.
But I'm glad that this event happened [last night] coz if it didn't, I wouldn't of realized how much K really cared for me and realize that the person that I really like and am totally sure about, it him. Now I really really want to see him!!! So yes, K is my definite answer, I ain't changing ever again!!!! xD
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