I guess that is one thing that I love about him.
I sort of hinted/told him [indirectly] about how I was feeling last night. About how when I'm down, I want him to be there for me. And just to text me or comfort me. But in a way... He didn't get it. But I guess it's totally understandable, considering, I wasn't very direct all. He said that he hopes/wishes that he could be right there by my side when I am down. But I told him that wasn't the point. I don't need him to be right there by my side to comfort me.
I understand that we are very far apart right now. And all I ask from his, is to text me back as soon as possible [ASAP]. And to call me/talk to me everyday or night. Just seeing his text, makes me happy. It's enough o make my day. I hate having to wait HOURS for his texts. It's so painful in a way.. Just waiting to hear from someone that you really love...
But seeing him last night [even over the phone] was enough to make me feel better and that I knew that he truly loved me and me only. Made me feel much much better. I love seeing him. Seeing him makes me feel so happy. I don't know why. But it makes me feels so relaxed and relieved...
He said that, if I didn't want him to do something, or wanted him to do something. And if I didn't like or like him doing, I should tell him. And the thing that I really want him to do is, to text me back ASAP. But like, I have already told him that plenty of times. And he has said that he would try. But ... I can't keep telling him. Coz I don't want to give him pressure to check his phone every second.. But he said that is what he wants from me. To tell him what he should/shouldn't do. And to control him. I don't want to control him like that. He has his own freedom and his own life. I don't want to be a control freak... I don't want people around him OR me to think that I am a very controlling girlfriend...
I hope he will understand how I feel one day. All I ask for is for him to text me back ASAP. Is it really that hard to ask for............?
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