Sorted

So me and my boyfriend has finally [pretty much] sorted out this whole situation that has been causing him to not believe that my feelings are not 100% towards him and now he knows how I really feel towards him through all this time. I'm glad we got it out of the way. Now he has faith in himself, and now I know that he trusts my love for him.

I love him so much. I feel happy when I talk to him. It's lovely. I really want to hug and put my head on his shoulder. It's such a good feeling :)

Last night [viz text] we were like talking about out future together. Having kids and who is going be the strict/scary parent and who is going to be the nice parent.And where we were going to live in Auckland. Oh ... It was such a lovely talk. It made me wanna live with him like REAL. SOON. But I know, we've got a long way to go before we actually get engaged, married and then start our 'new' lives as parents and have kids.

It's such an amazing feeling just thinking into the future, knowing that there is someone who is there for you all the time and loves you, and you only. I love the way how he is so caring, considerate, loving and so respectful towards not only me, but my parents, grandparents and aunty [in Auckland]. It makes me smile just thinking how kind he is towards all the people around me.

He pretty much knows and have met all the that's people around me [or is 'in my world'] but I still got a long way to go. I haven't met any of his friends in Auckland. Although I have met his parents and sister. But like, I know I got a long way to go and that he really wants me to meet his parents and introduce me to them as his girlfriend [coz he's only introduced me to them as his friend only]. So... Yeah. But you know, I'm not very good at talking to adults. Coz i don't know what to talk about, and I get all nervous, wanting them to like me and have a good impression of me.

So... I don't know. We'll go with the flow and see how it goes when I finally have to see his dad [with him] and have dinner at his place with them. Oh I'm scared already. Scared and nervous!