I just came back from Auckland. Went there with my BFF, S and K, who drove us up. Was such a good trip. Arrived in Auckland, had so much fun, from catching up with out friends and hanging out with them and my cousins and shopping and going to Mission Bay (a beach). It was the time of our/my life!! And the best thing besides all that, was spending time with K.
Thinking about him gets me all happy and high. Makes me smile from the bottom of my heart.Makes me feel like a little girl that has just fallen in love or something. He makes me feel giddy (haha). I like him soo much. Spending so much time with him has made me realize, that I do like him more than just a friend or that I'm going through another one of my "guy phases". I can tell this is different to all those "guy phases" that I have, coz I know that he, is the one I want to be with. And I know that if I ever hear or see him with another girl in his arms, I would be very very jealous and upset.
I think about like pretty much every second of the day. I mean yeah, that may sound a tad TOO much and weird. But he's all I have on my mind right now. Maybe.... He does like me too? Coz when we spent time in Auckland, he did what he did when we were in Wellington. Like, putting his arms around me and like holding me close to him. It felt gooooood... haha. Every time that we are alone, he does that. Like pulls me close to him and whispers in my ear or he just sort of make an excuse saying that isn't it what I dream of having him hold me close when it's cold and all? I love him for that. He's just so sweet.
He drove me and my other friends all around Auckland, like everywhere that we wanted to go, he'd take us without hesitating, like a lot of other people would. I mean, with just that, I love him for it. He even came with me to my grandparents place -twice! and had a good conversation with him. It was so sweet of him. I like the way how he respects my grandparents and has a conversation with them and make them 'love' him. Like giving them good impression of him to them. He's awesome like that.
It was really embarassing as well as *squeal* when my grandpa asked if K was my boyfriend, like I wanted to say yes. But obviously I couldn't, coz of the fact that he isn't!! ahaha. Then grandpa asked again, and I obviously said no again. But he was like, maybe it's just the start of the relationship aye? And I just smiled. I mean, we sat together on the couch, so close to each other, while grandma and grandpa was talking to us/me. It did feel like we were a couple. It was such a great feeling :) And the funny but cute thing is, that last night, the night before I left Auckland, we went to visit her before one last time before I went off to PN, grandma was telling K to come over anytime to just have a chat with them or anything (like eat or whatever). It was so cute. It's like my grandma loves him already *big smile* But then later on when I asked him whether he was gonna go and visit my grandparents one day, he was like "No. Only when you're here." I was like, "Why?" He said, "Coz it'll be random if I dropped in and said 'Hi! I'm gonna stay for dinner tonight!'" I laughed.
My grandparents think he is a smart boy, coz he works at the Auckland airport and like he's just plain awesome (haha). It was so sweet and cute when he denied he was smart. Hehe. And yeah, my grandma pretty much told him my whole life story about when I was a kid and what I was like and what kind of person I am. It was like oh my gosh. Shame. But aww. coz K gets to know something about me that no other guy knows. And he IS the first guy that has ever met my grandparents! And love him already! Haha. I feel so special and lucky.
So last night, me, S, K, R, Y and M went out for dinner for the last time while we were in Auckland. We went to this Japanese restaurant called, Daikoku, and they ordered warm/hot sake, and I didn't realize that it was that strong and taking one sip got me all hot and my face burning and I felt dizzy and started to feel sleepy. (Coz I'm a sleepy drunk). And then I took a second sip, and that was when I practically wanted to drop down and sleep. Everyone was so worried about me, but I soo did now want to make this huge scene.
K told me he was worried about me. I was so touched. And obviously my BFF, S was too. She was there for me. Let me put my head on her shoulder while I sleep for a bit and recover. But in the end, I recovered. Though I still felt a bit sleepy, but not as much as I was before.
When K took me and S home last night (my cousin's place), I got to spend some alone time with him outside. I wanted to giv him something, but I didn't know what. And since my grandparents both gave me $50 each, I gave him $50 for the petrol that he used on me and taking me ad my friends around. But he wouldn't accept it. It took me a longggg time to get him to stop refusing and let me put it in his pocket. But before I could put it in his pocket, he pulled me in for a hug. It was like aww. And we just sort of kept "arguing" over the fact that he should take the money but he doesn't want to.
At one point he stopped resisting and we just settled in for the hug and kept talking about whether I had fun in Auckland and how he was worried about me when I got a tad tipsy/drunk.Then my cousin, A came out to say goodbye to me coz I won't be able to see her tomorrow coz she has her course to go to. So she came out to say goodbye and we hugged. When she came out, K didn't like instantly let go of me like when they saw someone -like a family member or friend, and they'd let go of me like a lot of the other guys I had this "phase" with. He just kept hugging me until she came over. She was like, "I'm not trying to intrude on you guys, but yeah. Just wanted to say goodbye... etc." It was sort of embarrassing having your cousi to see you like that. But oh well. Kevin doesn't mind. HEE! After she went back inside, we carried on with our hug. It was like aww. So warm and I wanted to stay like that forever, though I felt that he was shaking coz it was a cold night. But hugging him was so warm for me. Maybe it's coz I'm not big enough towarm him up... haha.
We hugged and talked. I asked him when I was able to see him again, he said, not sure, maybe July or August. I was like, aw. I hope I don't have to wait for like 5 months to see you again. And he's like na. I was relieved. I wanted to see him as soon as he could come back down to PN. He has work at 4am the next morning and said he wasn't planning to sleep. And it was like 11.30pm. Or something? I told him that I'd miss him and couldn't wait for hm to come back to PN again. He was like, "There's something called 3G, you know?" And I was like, "Yeah... But i costs." He was like, "just go onto that plan." I was like, "That BestMate plan?" He's like yeah. And I was like OK and smiled.
Funny thing was, when we hugged, he kept touching my butt (haha). Then he was like, "You really do have a nice ass." And I laughed and said thanks. He kept saying it though -not lik every second. More like.. said it once or 4 times? And said that it felt good and didn't want to let go.Then he was like sorry, but it's true. I was like haha thanks *smile* and said, "You only like me for my ass?" haha. But like, he's the first guy to ever make a move by touching my butt and giving me a compliment. It was different but at the same time, I didn't mind him doing so. All I know was that I wanted to hug and stay with him like that forever. He has his own different smell. Like no perfume kind of stuff. Just him. It was good just being able to smell him and putting a bit of my lips on his bare neck and smelling him. (Man, I sound like so... Pervertic and creepy haha). But I loved it.
Then my other cousin, I and my BFF, S came out, and S was like, "we're not checking up on you guys or anything, but I need to give you some petrol money." And gave him $20. That's when he remembered the $50 that I gave him. So then I had to go back to making him take both the $50 and $20. He said that he doesn't need the money now andto give him the money when he needs it. Or that we should treat him lunch when he comes back down to PN. And we were like, "Na, Petrol costs way more than lunch." Then he was like, "No, petrol doesn't cost that much." Then goes to my cousin, and asks her, "You drive aye? Petrol doesn't cost that much aye?" And she was like, "No. It costs a lot." And he was like "Ohh. You were suppose to be on my side!" And we all laughed and made him accept it. But he still wouldn't.
So I went to the other side of his car and went to that erm... thing you pull out (haha), storage thing? Coz that's where he puts his wallet (he doesn't use a wallet. He has this metal case thing for his cards), and he tried locking his doors from the drivers side and he failed to (ahhaahha!!) so I managed to put the money in his wallet and said, the money will be there when he needs it. And that's when, it was finally time for us to say our goodbyes for real. I was so sad.
But then again, when my cousin and S came out, he thought it was my aunty, and even THEN! He didn't pull me away. Even though I told him it wasn't my aunty but he kept saying it was, he still kept on hugging me and said in a joking way, that I'd have to explain to them (aunty and uncle) about our hugging situtation as well as then having to explain to my parents. I didn't care. I just wanted him. But it turned out to be my cousin and S.
When we walked in the house, S was like, from a distance. You guys look like you were in a kissing position. I laughed and told her there were no kissing involved. Hugging only. She was like, "Oh, it jus looked like it." I just smiled and wish it was.. haha.
*Sigggghhhh* I'm off in my own litle world ... haha. I have made mu decision. I want K and he's all I want. I'm not gonna regret going out with him coz some other hot guy suddenly walks into my life. Well at least I hope not. I hope we don't lose our communication and our closeness that we had built during all those days that we spent together just building on that closeness.
I miss him so much right now.
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