Give up?

I went down to Wellington with K yesterday, along with C as well. And during that day. You could say it was fun and different to what I do daily here in PN. But like, as the second or whatever, time, goes by, that I am hanging out with K, I feel like we're getting closer and closer to each other coz of the fact that we are seeing or hanging out with each other so much.

But anyways, the point is, during that whole day that we were together, I felt that MAYBE he had some feelings for me. Coz he like you know, jokingly put his arm around me and said, "If I put my arm around you, then people will know that you are taken by me." I laughed, but in a way, I don't know, but like, it felt good, but sort of like it didn't mean that much to me either. He also put his hand around my waist.. or my back, should I say? Yeah, that felt nice in a way. (Nothing dirty or anything OK??) He also asked me whether I was cold and offered and lent me his jacket. Like he insisted on me to wear it coz it was cold. I mean it was very nice of him. But like, I dunno. I don't know why he did all those gestures, even though knowingly it was just like a joke and nothing serious. And like why he cared that much really, even though he said that if I caught a cold, my mom would probably go psycho at him (haha). But, ARRGH. Like he doesn't do these kinds of things often to me. So I don't know. ><>

But all my happy happy fa la la la la feelings towards him soon changed. Coz as we (me, K, C and their other friend whom I just meet properly, HO (he's a guy by the way. Just the "abbreviation is a tad.. strange haha), walked to the beach in Wellington, he called someone (most likely a girl), coz he said something like that person has a presentation tomorrow or something and was wanting to wish that person good luck.

I mean, the conversation probably lasted for like 10 - 20 minutes or so. But like still, he was like talking very nice and soothingly towards that person. And I know that a guy like him would least likely to be calling a guy a 9.30pm just to wish them good luck. So it had to be a girl. But either way, I guess you could say I got a tad jealous. Coz knowingly he never actually calls me to wish me good luck for anything. Not even my exams!! But anyways, I guess we aren't really that close anyways. Coz I'm sure that person whom he called lives in Auckland like him. So... yeah.. I dunno.

And then during that walk to the beach and all, he and C kept like annoying me with always bringing uip R. Like saying, "Oh she's quiet coz she misses R and wishes to talk to him and keep her warm." and "She must be texting R." And all those stupid lines. But like ARRGH. It gets sooo freakin' fustrating and annoying. Besides the fact that it IS K who is like joining in as well. It's like, gosh! stop it will you guys?? But then again, I don't want to come across as some agro girl.

So as K was driving us back to PN at about 10.30pm, I felt quite exhausted and tired and sleepy as well. I slept for a bit then woke up coz the ride got too bumpy and I couldn't really sleep properly. And so I woke up and starting thinking to myself, why is he being so nice to me, yet he has that special someone already?? I mean, yeah, he can keep his options open (kind of like the way I am -I think) but like ... I don't know. He shouldn't be so nice to me and then let me know that he's got that special someone too.

Now I think, do I really like him, or is this another one of my guy-liking phases?? I guess, out of all the guys I know, the only guys I'd most likely to give it a go, is with HI, K or A. So... I dunno, we'll see how everything goes. Like, I don't want to know that K has a girlfriend later on the years, though it would be a good thing, considering he is... getting old. And obviously his parents would want him to get married and start a family. I'm still young and don't want to get tied down already. So... In a way, I guess I could say, "If he's happy, I'm happy."