Tuesday, June 29, 2010

My "Dream" Guy

Remember how last night he asked me who I liked and I told him that this special person changed the way I think about love and relationships etc.? Yeah, well it seems like he really has no clue that this special guy is him!! You don't know how much I wanted to like yell out to him that the "dream guy" was HIM!! OMGOSH!! ><

I like gave him "hints" telling him, that I want and am waiting for my "dream guy" to ask me face-to-face -that is IF he asks. So yeah, and then he told me that if my "dream guy" rejects me coz he (K) told me to go for it, he (K) said that he'd still be waiting for me. I was like aww! But I told him that if he doesn't go for the girl he wants, and just sits there doing nothing, then the girl that he wants will get taken by some other guy.

He said that it's true. And told me to wait for him to ask me. I was like 'Haha. Ok.' Then he was like, what if by the time I come back, and I see you with your dream guy? I was thinking to myself, 'Yeah, and that guy would be you. Hahaha!!' But I didn't say that, I just said to him, I'd wait for him and to not worry about me accepting from my "dream guy".

He asked me why I didn't go for it [with my dream guy] and I was like, I don't ask guys out, I like it the traditional way. Guy ask girl. And that if he does find another girl, then I will be fine with it. Though I'd be sad inside. He said that, if I liked some other guy and was going out with him, he wouldn't mind, coz he knows that I am in his heart and that if I'm happy, he's happy. That was soo touching.

Oh I love him so much. I don't know so much about love, but I know that, no matter how much I think about him, I will not get sick of him. I mean, yeah, sometimes I do get sick of thinking about him. I think it's mainly because of the fact, that I can't see him and like remember his face. It's so hard! I try so hard to remember his face -like clearly, not a blurry and unclear vision.

I keep thinking back to that last night that we hugged for such a longggg time when I was in Auckland. That was the best memory of us together so far. Such a good memory. When I think about him a lot, and all the things he said and texted me, I start to miss him SOOO much, that I start to have tears swelling up in my eyes :'( I want to hug him, I want to be in his arms like that night again. I miss him -so bad...


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